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Angel's Pov:
Two months. Two slow and painful months without Xander. Ever since the day I slapped him I haven't been the same. I felt like when he left he took my heart with him. My parents have constantly tried talking to me but I refused them every time.
The only person I've talked to so far was my uncle Chantelle. I don't know why but I felt like he was the only one who understood the depth of the situation. I knew my parents were hurt by this but I was in far more pain.
"Angel, if you are so depressed without Xander, why don't you just talk to him?" Angelo asked as I pushed my food around my plate. We were currently having a family dinner but I was too upset to even eat my food.
"You wouldn't understand Angelo, none of you would. May I please be excused?"
"Baby, you haven't even touched your food" Dad said worriedly.
"I lost my appetite. I'm going to bed" I said and pushed away from the table.
"Is he going to be alright?" I heard Raphael ask as I climb the stairs slowly.
"Yeah, wish I knew how to help him" Uncle Chantelle said.
I open my bedroom door and lock it behind me. A sigh escapes me as I fall face first onto the bed. I reach under my pillow and pull out Xander's jersey that I stole before he left. I ran my fingers over his last name and mine was below his in gold lettering. We had gotten our last names printed on matching black football jerseys. Mine was more like a dress than a jersey though. We had gotten them on our last date together and tears came to my eyes at the memory.
My heart aches just thinking about him, which is all the time. I want to just jump back into his arms and tell him that I forgive him but every time I try I freeze and I don't know why. I felt lonely, so lonely. I wanted Xander. No, I needed Xander. I took out my phone and just played some random songs. A certain song came on and I couldn't help but feel worse.
{Song Above}
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Everybody knows my name now But somethin' 'bout it still feels strange Like lookin' in a mirror, tryna steady yourself And seein' somebody else And everything is not the same now It feels like all our lives have changed Maybe when I'm older, it'll all calm down But it's killin' me now
What if you had it all But nobody to call? Maybe then, you'd know me 'Cause I've had everything But no one's listening And that's just fuckin' lonely
I'm so lonely Lonely
Everybody knows my past now Like my house was always made of glass And maybe that's the price you pay For the money and fame at an early age And everybody saw me sick And it felt like no one gave a shit They criticized the things I did As an idiot kid
