Can't Live Without You (Killugon Angst)

Is x Alluka x Okay?

Note: thank you so much for those who are reading this story, I didn't start this thinking people would read it ._. So thank you it means a lot to me!

        Gon's POV
       I woke up to someone coughing. It eventually stopped, and I closed my eyes. It started up again, the person coughing and having like they couldn't get air into their lungs. I sat up, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. Once I'm finally awake I see... Alluka! She's coughing in her bed and her face is red. I run over to her bed.
"Alluka! Are you okay?!" I ask her. Her forehead is incredibly warm and there are dark bags under her eyes.
"Can... y-you wake up O-oni-Chan?" Her voice is raspy. I run back to Killua's bed.
"KILLUA!" I scream into his ear.
"Ow! What the fuck Gon!" He looks around, realizing that Alluka is awake. "Alluka you didn't hear tha-" He stops, seeing Alluka's condition. He picks her up, bridal style. "We need to get her to a doctor."

~~~1 Hour Later~~~

          Killua's POV
        It's been an hour since Alluka was hospitalized. She's still in the ER. Gon and I are waiting for the doctor's diagnosis. I put my head in my hands. Gon looks uncomfortable. The doctor finally comes out. He's holding a clipboard. He pities me. I can see it in his eyes.
"The patient, sorry, Alluka is stable now," Gon exhales, relieved. So do I. "However," I sucked in my breath. "We found the source of her sickness. She has a condition called genshiarosis. It's a lung problem, caused usually by a cold. It's very rare. I'm sorry." Why was he apologizing? Can't the doctors fix her? Gon broke the silence.
"There's a cure, right? You can help her!" The doctors face told us the answer.
"I'm sorry. We haven't found a cure."
Alluka was going to die.
Alluka
Was
Going
To
Die.
"YOUR LYING! YOUR FUCKING LYING! ALLUKA IS FINE! SO SHUT UP!" I shouted.I turned on my Godspeed. I don't care if the doctor sees it. I ran out of the hospital.
Alluka
Was
Going
To
Die.
Tears streamed down my face. I kept on running.
Alluka
Was
Going
To
Die
And
It's
My
Fault.
Godspeed ran out. Had I been running for that long? Yes. Where am I? Somewhere. I collapsed on the ground. I screamed. Why Alluka? She barely had seen the world. Why not me? Take me instead! I screamed. And screamed some more. If I had just noticed that something was wrong. If I hadn't been so self centered and focused on Gon. If I wasn't the disappointment that I am... Alluka wouldn't be dying right now.

       Alluka's POV
        It hurts. I try not to show it, but it hurts. Gon visits me, and I don't ask where Oni-Chan is. I heard what he yelled and I heard him use his Godspeed. I don't think anyone knows where he is right now. Plus, it hurts to open my mouth. But I can endure pain for Gon.
"Hi." I can see he's trying not to cry.
"Hi Alluka." I get straight to the point.
"How much time?"
"What?"
"How long do I have to live?" He bites his lips. "Uh..."
"I know the doctor told you. Tell m-" I can't say that. That would be a request.
"H-he s-said h-h-he th-thinks you h-have a-about..." he trails off, fighting tears. He takes a deep breath. "He said he thinks you have a-a w-week," Tears finally flow from his eyes. "I'm r-really s-s-sorry Alluka. Y-you d-deserve b-b-better." I start to cry too, but not for the fact that I'm dying.
"No, I don't. Nanika and I, we k-killed so many people. Th-this is f-fine." My throat starts to burn. "I-I t-t-think I d-deserve t-this." Gon looks angry.
"No! You DO NOT deserve this! Your kind and cool and a good sister to Killua!" I open my mouth to respond, but nothing comes out. I start to cough again. A nurse comes in an ushers Gon outside.
"N-no... c-come b-back..." I don't think anyone can hear me. The nurse injects something into my arm, and I start to feel sleepy. Anesthesia. I try to fight it, but my vision blurs. Oh well. I guess drug-induced sleep is better than no sleep.