Can't Live Without You (Killugon Angst)

Pay x The x Price

A/N im really sorry for not uploading for so long! Please forgive me! I really have no idea why I suddenly got writers block- I started this fanfiction full of ideas and with a whole plot, but now that I'm actually writing it, it's been hard to stay motivated. Anyways thank you to all who are reading, and this chapter is dedicated to @jahstinism @yaoi1slife @heidi_potato @kurapikasgflolz and @Killugon_child !

Kurapika's POV
My arm is being yanked out of its socket. I've caught Gon with one of my chains. It's tangled around his waist. He's dangling about 15 feet below me. But it's still high enough to kill him if he falls. I'm holding the chain with my right hand. Left hand holding the railing. Feet planted on the ground.
"GON! GRAB THE WALL!" I scream at him. He looks up at me, then down at the ground below him. He tries to wriggle out of the chain. "GON, STOP!" I try to pull him up. I only manage a couple feet before he drops down again. He starts to untangle the chains. I can't hold him much longer. I have to make him cooperate. "GON! GRAB THE WALL! THIS ISN'T WHAT KILLUA WOULD'VE WANTED YOU TO DO!" My arm is numb. My heart is pounding. I grab the chain with my other hand, releasing the railing. This flurry of emotions inside of me is exactly the same as the night Killua died. Anger, sadness, shock, guilt, fear. But it's different. I can save him this time. "LISTEN TO ME! GRAB THE WALL! KILLUA WOULD NEVER FORGIVE YOU IF YOU GAVE UP YOUR LIFE FOR HIM!" He freezes. "HE WOULD WANT YOU TO DO ANYTHING OTHER THAN THIS!" He's too heavy. My feet are sliding towards the edge. If the railing were to break... Gon looks up. And sees how close I am to plummeting to my death. Then grabs the wall. A step away from the railing. A step up the wall. Another. And another. Until a hand grabs the ledge. And a sharp stab of pain in my chest. I sit down, dizzy, exhausted. I hear Gon running to me. I look up at the stars. Then they fade to nothing.

Gon's POV
Kurapika collapses. His eyes roll up into his head. His skin is pale. Too pale.
"Kurapika! Are you okay!?" I shake him. His chains rattle. His chains... he's using that one. Chain Jail. The one he can only use on the Spiders. But it's the only long one. The only one that could save me. But it might've cost him his life. I pick him up. He's heavy. But I can take it. I slide down the railing of the stairs. In different circumstances this would be fun. Once I get to the lobby I scream at the receptionist. She dials 911 instantly. I guess she's used to doing that. Kurapika starts to shake. I try to scream, but my throat burns. My chest is getting tighter, harder to breathe. It's exactly like before. I'm can't do anything. I'm useless. Again.

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The doctors words are echoing in my head. "From the MRI scan, something pierced his heart. I've never seen anything like it. There's no outside wound. He's in critical condition and undergoing emergency surgery."
I may be dumb, but I know how serious critical condition is. I may be oblivious, but I know that this my fault. I may be a glass-half-full kind of person, but I don't know if I can hope my way out of this. I'm no Nen Exorcist. All I can do is play the waiting game.

~~~4 days later~~~

     He's alive. If being in a coma counts as being alive. "His vitals are stable, but we don't know when he'll wake up." If. If he wakes up. He's strong. He killed one of the stronger Phantom Troupe members. But that means his Contract would be just as strong. I'm sitting by his bedside. Thinking. About what I've done. How many best friends I've let down. Alluka. Killua. Now Kurapika. This guilt is overwhelming. All-consuming. Then someone barrels into the room and jolts me out of my thoughts.

A/N I'm so sorry for not updating in a month (I think). I don't even have any excuses I just didn't feel like writing. I'll try to get a more normal updating schedule! Also sorry for the really short chapter I'm sure you expected more, considering I haven't updated in so so long. I'll be better! Also holy shit guys thanks so much for 1.5k reads and almost 100 votes this is insane I forgot to check wowowowow ❤️❤️ love y'all