Can't Live Without You (Killugon Angst)

Blood x And x Tears

Note: this may also trigger some people so WARNING ⚠️
Dedicated to @1eorio and @crazy_for_anime_123 they were the 3rd and 4th people to comment and/or vote so tysm it mean so much to me

       Gon's POV
          "KILLUA! OPEN THE DOOR OR IM BUSTING IT DOWN!" He's locked himself in his room. If I had my Nen I would've jajakened through the whole wall. But I don't. "KILLUA! I'M SORRY!" I whip out my phone to text Kurapika. He's still in Yorknew.

KURAPIKA HELP
Surprisingly, he responds almost instantly. I guess he was watching for communication from me or Killua.

What is it?

Killua confessed to me
and then he ran to the
hotel and he's locked
himself in his room
and I'm scared for him

I'm on my way

Kurapika's here now. It took him 5 minutes.
"I would break the door down but I don't have my Nen back. Can you help me?"
"Okay. On 3. 1...2...3!" I shoved my shoulder against the door. Kurapika did the same. I missed. My head slammed against the door. It still broke anyway, and Kurapika ran into the room. I'm dizzy on the floor. Kurapika screams. I pop onto my feet. Kurapika's sobbing reaches my ears.
"Kurapika?! Are you okay?!"
"GON! COME QUICK!" I run into his room and... no. No. No. NO. Killua's on the floor. In a pool of blood. His white shirt is a solid red. His silver hair is stained with splotches of maroon. His nails are sharpened. Bloody. There's a slash across his neck. A trickle of blood from the corner of his mouth. I run to his side. His chest isn't rising. Or falling.
"KURAPIKA! CALL AN AMBULANCE!" He nods and runs out of the room. CPR. I never learned it. I don't see a first aid kit. Not that a band-aid could fix this. No. I won't believe it. Killua's fine! This is just a hallucination from my head hitting the door. Killua's not dead! But... I can't believe that when his blood his all over the floor. My vision turns red tinted. Is this what Kurapika feels when his eyes turn scarlet?
"WHO DID THIS!? WHOEVER DID THIS WILL PAY!" I scream. Tears. Falling onto his blood. Mingling, mixing. He's lost so much of it. I pick him up. His blood is warm. It's still oozing out of his neck. Then I realize. I almost drop him. "I did this. It's my fault. He... committed suicide. Because... of me." I set him down onto his couch. I sink to my knees. The world blurs. There's blood all over my hands. Killua's blood. "Killua. How... h-how w-w-will I l-live w-w-without you? I c-can't. Y-you're e-e-everything t-to m-me!"
        Kurapika's back. Sirens outside. Room staff pouring into the room. A doctor. Maybe it's Leorio. They try to drag me away from Killua. I wish I had my Nen. Then no one could keep me away from Killua. I struggle. I feel a shot in my arm. Drugs. Too bad they don't work too well on me. They're attaching tubes to Killua. They're taking him away.
"KILLUA! KILLUA! STOP FUCKING HOLDING ME BACK! KURAPIKA TELL THEM TO LET GO!" He runs over to me. He whispers to me.
"I'm sorry." I feel him chop the back of my neck. That bitch. The world is spinning. I'm on my hands and knees. My tears are choking me. I can't breathe.
"KILLUA! KILLUA! C-come b-b-back!" My throat is hoarse. "K-Killua! C-c-come b-back." The doctors took him away. All that's left is his blood on the floor. And on me. "I-it's m-m-my fault. K-Kurapika. I-it's my fault." I'm so dizzy. When Kurapika responds I can't make out the words. The room is twisting and turning underneath me. "It's my fault." I'm hollow. I'm numb. I've lost my best friend.

       Kurapika's POV (this might be the only one but maybe not.)
           I ran out of the room to get an ambulance. I didn't want to leave Killua there, but the look in Gon's eyes was... terrifying to say the least. I dial 911.
"911, what's your emergency?"
"We need an ambulance ASAP at the Hotel Beitacle. Someone's... severely injured." I talk to the responder while I run to the front desk. The receptionist is filing papers or something. I scream at her.
"Do you have medical staff here!? We need them in room 318! RIGHT NOW!" She opens her mouth to say something, then she sees my eyes. They're scarlet. She can probably feel my aura too. She nods and dials a number. They're here within minutes. We run up to Killua's room. They don't pause at the broken door. Some of their faces blanch when they see the huge pool of blood. Three staff have to hold Gon back. He's screaming curses at them. It's chaotic. The noise gives me a headache, and my ears are ringing. Gon's about to shake the doctors off, so I run to him. He's screaming in my face. I have to knock him out. I chop his neck, and he falls to the ground, coughing. He's glaring at me. The doctors cart Killua away, in a bed. His blood is all over Gon. It's everywhere. Gon starts to shout again but he eventually just starts to cry. He crumples onto the ground and goes limp. Through all the ruckus, I hear a whisper.
"Kurapika. It's my fault." I swallow the lump in my throat.
"No. It's not your fault." I sit down next to him, and grab his shoulders. He's crying. His eyes are... hollow. "Gon. Look at me. It is NOT you're fault. This is NOT YOUR FAULT!" I have to be strong for Gon.
"It's my fault." He chokes and curls into a ball. "It's my fault. It's my fault." He repeats it like a mantra. "It's my fault. It's my fault." He starts to cough. The shot that the doctors gave might be kicking in. After what seems like ages, he sleeps. I'm exhausted. But I can't sleep. I should've realized that Killua would've tried to kill himself. But I didn't. I was too busy looking for clues about the Phantom Troupe. I should've tried to use my Nen to heal him. I shouldn't have just stood there, shocked. I carry Gon to the hospital where they brought Killua. The doctors put him in a room, and link some machines up. I think I'll tell Leorio and some of Gon's friends about what happened. I take out Gon's phone. I make a group chat with a bunch of his contacts.

Hello. This is Kurapika.
I thought I would inform
you guys what happened
today.

(Leorio)
Kurapika? What
happened? And why
are you texting
with Gon's phone?

Gon's in the hospital
right now. He's sleeping.

(Wing)
Is he okay?

Yes. The doctors drugged
him so he would sleep-
something happened today

(Leorio)
What happened?!

Killua tried to kill himself.

(Leorio)
WHAT? IS HE OKAY?

(Ikalgo)
WHAT

(Bisky)
What? You said
tried, is he okay?

(Mito)
What? Are Killua
and Gon okay?

I'm waiting for a
doctor to report. But...

(Leorio)
But what?

He lost a lot of blood.
The doctors needed
to use a defibrillator
to try and restart his heart.

(Wing)
I'm in Yorknew City
right now with Zushi.
I'm coming.
Where are you?

We're at the Yorknew
Main Hospital

(Wing)
I'm on my way

(Leorio)
I'm coming too

Alright. But I have
to go. There's a doctor
coming

A doctor came out of Gon's room.
"Is he okay?" I asked, getting straight to the point.
"He's fine. We've given him some anesthesia. Just over the next few days keep an eye on him, and do NOT let him near any sharp objects. He'll probably have some trauma. No 12 year old should ever witness something as bad as that."
"He's seen worse than you'll ever see in your lifetime. But is Killua okay?"
"...We managed to restart his heart, but when we tried to give him blood... his body rejected it. I-I'm so, so sorry."
"I'm sorry, what?" I feel dizzy. My brain doesn't want to process this.
"He lost too much blood. His internal carotid artery was cut. Whoever killed him was highly skilled, and knew their anatomy."
Well duh. Killua was an assassin who could rip your heart out in a second. He knows how to kill. But... I was hoping some instinct stopped him from being efficient. I put my head in my hands. I hear someone running towards us. It's Leorio.
"Kurapika! Kurapika! Is Killua okay?" I don't respond. He slows down, seeing that I'm crying. "Oh." He sits down next to me. "Oh." He slumps into the seat. I'm so exhausted, I put my head on his shoulder and cry.
"H-he's g-gone. It was t-t-too late." I choke out. Leorio takes out his phone. It's buzzing like crazy. He types something. The buzzing stops. We sit there for hours. Or it feels like hours. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Wing and Zushi standing at the end of the hallway. Leorio gets up to talk to them. I close my eyes and drift into an exhausted sleep.

Note: I was crying while I was writing this- it's very hard to type on a phone when your crying. I know I say this a lot but thank you so, so, so much for reading this. I'm sorry if the next chapter isn't out for a while, I have school 😡