I'm Not Okay (I promise)

2 Helena

I woke up to the sound of Ghost Of You playing. One ear bud had fallen out last night, and it twisted around my wrist in the process.

I unwrapped it and threw it in my nightstand, then slugged out from under the covers.

My hair looked like a birds nest as always, so I decided to get in the shower.

As I let the hot water run through my hair I started sing....really badly.

"Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go,it's better off this way."

I knew the neighbors could hear me, but I didn't care.

They where use to it.

Some of the hair dye rolled down my arms and into the drain. I should re dye it when it fades all the way.

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Renee POV

I woke up to the sound of Steph singing. Yes the walls are really that thin.

I got up and hit it, before hearing the shower turn off on the other side.

"What a beautiful voice you have."I said sarcastically.

She giggled,"Why thank you."

"You getting ready for work? Oh wait, you don't have a job."

Silence.

I've been hard on her about this for a while now, I mean I can't help pay rent for ever can I?

Sometimes I ask if she wants to come to the salon with me and apply there, but she probably would ruin someone's hair and we'd get sued or something.

But she keeps saying no.
So there's nothing I can help her with if she won't except what I'm giving her.

"I have to go now." I said leaning against the wall.

Silence again.

"Bye." I whispered.

The walk to work was about five minuets away and I had to run because I was late.

And it's not easy running in down town.

My phone buzzed and I fished it out of my purse, hopping it was important.

It was Steph.

"Hello." I said a bit frustrated as I began walking hastily.

"Hey." She said a little sadly.

"What's wrong?"
"Nothing." She responded quickly.
"Steph, tell me now."
"It's nothing. I was going to tell you I wanted to go to work with you."
"I'm almost there. You could've told me earlier!"

She paused.

"I'm sorry. I've been feeling down lately and I don't know why."

I sighed.

This has been going on for weeks now. I hear her cry at night and I want to do something about it, but I can't.

"You know where it is right?"
"Yes."
"Meet me at the front desk, then we'll talk."
"About what?" She asked confused.
"By Steph."

The building was right in front of me, but before I could reach out for the door, some one tripped me.

My purse flew in the air, then landed in a bush. I fell forwards skinning my knees.

"What the-"
"I am so sorry! Let me help you up!"
Someone reached down and took my arms, but I pulled away.

"I can get up myself." I said standing up and steadying myself.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm fine."
"You sure?"
I nodded.

We stood there awkwardly for a second.
"Renee." I held out my hand.

"Gerard." He held his hand out and shook mine.

I smiled,"Have I seen you before?"