I'm Not Okay (I promise)

8 I Never Told You What I Do for A Living

"I'm moving." Renee cringed, expecting me to yell and scream at her for leaving me.

But I just stood there and smiled.
I don't know why I smiled, I mean I felt happy for her moving out of this crappy apartment building , but I still have to live here and the last time I checked, I couldn't afford it.

"But don't worry Steph," She hugged me and I hugged back, feeling a lump in my throat.

"I'll still visit. And you could come over any time."

Gerard was there too, leaning again the wall,"I'm happy for you Renee. It was about time you moved out."

"Where are the apartments?" I asked.

"Oh, it's actually a-a house." She corrected.

"Well that's nice." I was trying to be positive.

"Yah." Her voice was quiet.

It was silent for a few seconds until Gerard cleared his throat and said,"It's getting pretty late. I better head home."

"By G." I hugged him and didn't want to let go, but Renee whispered,"Let go Steph."

I turned to her,"I feel so messed up."
We both giggled a little, but then I had a straight face.
"Good night Renee."

I hugged her, then went to my own apartment.

***
Two months later

She had moved a few weeks ago and I had visited. It was a nice house and all, but nothing I could afford.

My Chem was working in their new album, The Black Parade, and I went over to the studio a few times.

They had already gone on tour and I missed them every second when I was without them.
I went back today, as Gerard had invited me the other day.

He said Frank would pick me up, so I waited at the front steps for a few minuets until a car came into sight.

I stood up, and walked over to it.

"Hey Frankie." I said getting in and buckling.

"Hey Steph, what's wrong?" He saw my face, which was full of worry.

"I-I I'm getting kicked out of my apartment if I don't pay soon. But it's not your worry, so."

I felt his hand on my shoulder,"Actually, it is my worry. Friends don't let stuff like this happen to other friends."

"Thanks Frank." I smiled.

"Let's go."

It didn't take that long to get to the studio, only about five minuets.

As I was about to get out, he stopped me,"Oh, by the way, Gerard looks...different today."

"Okay." I said slowly, opening the car door.

When we arrived inside, no one was in there, like that time they tried to scare me.

"Frankie, where is everyone?" I asked looking around.

No answer.

"Come on Frankie!" I spun around and he wasn't there.

"Hello?! Anyone?!"

All of a sudden someone came out of now where.

He had short white hair and was wearing all black with beautiful hazel eyes.

"Hi." I smiled shyly, as he moved closer.

"Do you know-Gerard?!"
He grinned down at me.

"Gerard, is that you?"

He nodded.

"You look great!" I examined.

"Do something with your hair?"

G laughed.
"No, I didn't." He said sarcastically.

"Did you do it yourself?"

"No, Renee did."

I flinched at the mention of her.

"I have to tell you something."

"Yes?"

"Well, we've known each other for a while now, and I like you."

"I know." I smiled.

"Will you be my girlfriend?"
Before I could answer, he wrapped his arms around my waist and I stood on my tiptoes, put my arms around his shoulders, and kissed him.

He kissed back so hard, we almost fell backwards on to the couch.

My hands made their way up to his new white hair, messing it up. He did the same to my hair(which was now almost similar to his)

I laughed as we both pulled away at the same time, gasping for air.

"That was awesome!" He breathed, falling to the floor and sitting cris cross. I did the same.

Soon enough, the rest of the band came stumbling in the front, Frank stood up beside the couch.

He ran over to Gerard and whispered something in his ear, who nodded, and took something out if his pocket.

It was a black velvet ring case.

I gasped.

"Oh, no no no! It's not what you think it is. I mean it's a ring, but it's a promise ring. So we can stay together." He opened it, revealing a simple silver band with a black diamond in the middle.

I held out my hand and he slipped it on.

"I love you." I whispered in his ear.

He put his lips to my ear, but instead of saying something, he kissed me.

Again.
And again.
And again.

"I love you too." He said, when I pulled away, gasping.

Mikey walked up to his brother and put his hand on G's shoulder,"You got a good one."

***
That night

Gerard came over to my apartment to comfort me because I couldn't pay the rent. Frankie had told him earlier.

"Let's let the last night you have in this shitty place be the best."
We were on the couch in the dim light of my cheap lamp.

I was lying on G's lap as he stroked my hair gently, singing to me.

Soon enough I fell asleep from his beautiful voice.

I woke up minuets later, when I felt someone moving from under me.
"What is it?" I asked drearily as G froze when I sat up.

"I was just getting up to go." He whispered.

I groaned,"Don't go. Please don't go."

He was silent.

"You said we should make the best of this night. I have to leave tomorrow." I yawned, propping up on the arm of the couch.

"Then let's." He smirked, grabbing my hand and dragging me into my bedroom.

But the second he slammed the door, he looked worried.
"Are you sure your ready for this Steph?"

I rolled my eyes and pulled his sweater so he would lean down to me.

"I'm ready."