She can't be my mate (on Hold)

Chapter 5

Elizabeth p.o. v

It's been a week since I rejected Alex.... I miss her so much but I just can't be her mate. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I don't understand why the moon godess would put us together.

I mean I love Alex but how would things work out if  she becomes Alpha im not luna material im the beta. I can't be a luna and I can't be with Alex for so many reasons...

like she my best friend. we have known each other are whole lives. "then why is it so hard to love her a little bit more? You know your not only hurting  her wolf and her . your hurting  yourself and me  you idiot" my wolf mayline says to me. You can here in her voice she was about to cry but she doesn't understand. That it is hard to love a person who you have known as only your best friend. Alex is like a sister "your just scared to be luna, your scared that she going to think your not good enough, your scared that she going to treat you like the others. But in reality your the only one she wants.  Your letting her be hurt what a mate you are" my wolf says before disappearing  into the back of my mind.

wow she is a huge bitch for that. But I don't care she doesn't understand no one ever will.

Alex p.o. v

This week has been a living hell. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I haven't shifted since that night,  im getting sick. This rejection is taking a tole on me. I might have to let my wolf take over for a while. But he is crazy so no. And no one knows about me and my wolf being  different extremely.  So different there are no and I mean no, nothing at all, no  records of a wolf being a different gender.  So I don't know what will happen if anyone finds out. Of course my dad and mom knows they saw me first shift im way to big to be a female wolf and even worse because im an Alpha so yay .... note my huge amount of sarcasm in the yay.

Also some pack members know but they know I will rip off tounges if they dare speak of it to anyone.

"Can we please go for a run im tired of just being stuck her in your room"mark whinned so I got up and open the window  then jumped out I don't want anyone to see me weak so im going to go for a run come back eat a live  how I use to single...

"Free at last" mark yelled runs around like a pup  he is a fucking werido but im happy he is my wolf the only thing that makes me happy right now

"Come on lets go home im starving and mom probably wondering why im so late"  I  said to  Mark before  we heard a twig snap in the distance I shifted back and put my clothes on quickly when I saw a group of guys walking funny and laughing the sent if alcohol hit me hard along with something unexplainable and unexpected Humans.....

"What are they doing here?" Mark said and I shrugged and mind linked the pack not to shift in this part because I don't know how many more of these humans were here and I also called for back up just in case "don't you do it" mark said to me before I went to the overly intoxicated humans  " this is privet property you have to leave" I say to them I had there full attention but not how I wanted it "baby we ain't going no where but if you want you can pleasure us with a little stipin if you know what I mean" the one to my left said he was a little to close for comfort so I moved "just leave you nasty ass hole" I said in a threatening tone "awww she so cute playing hard to get why don't we just take her" the one holding a bottle said and the other three nodded and laughed "I liked that idea"  a blound guy said before running to me attending to hit me with a bottle instead he got hit in his cherries and knocked out with his bottle along with the others and just ass I finished the back up came  "really I wanted to knock out a human to" Thomas said  and I laughed "seriously no you don't cause my hand sticks worse then raw bird three weeks old" I said and they cringed "really" they asked and I nodded letting them smell and they agreed right away "just help me get them off the land and check if there are any more we don't want them here it's to close to a full moon for that." I said and they nodded spilting into two groups  we of course got all humans off are land they were having a party in the outer part of are land  clam to not know this land was owed but there gone and im at home eating a nice sandwich

I was zoned out until the sent of cherries and cookies hit me the best smell in the world  I wish I could just smell it all day I looked up and saw her still beautiful breathtaking beyond compare she short blond hair down her green eyes glowing her skin  tanned slightly I love her but she doesn't love me so I clear my throat and look away tears swelling in my eyes "sorry I didn't mean to stare" I said  and she walked closer "I wouldn't do that if I were you might lose your mate by getting to close" I said rather harshly but that's how im feeling hurt but who's fault is that oh right hers "Alex don't be this way im sorry if I...." I can't hear this "hurt really im more then hurt you took the one thing I need the most away  you left me all alone in this world when all I have been waiting for was you so thanks but I have the right to be hurt" I said a little bit to calm for my own liking but she ignored me and sat in front of me leaning her head on mine "im still sorry" she whispered  staying there for a long moment before taking the rest of my sandwich and eating it infront of me she's a bitch but I can't stay mad at her gosh uggggggh

"Hey I got an idea because I can't live without you and I know danm well you can't live without me" she says talking another bit of my sandwich "why can't we just stay friends without all the mate like things" she says and I give the are you an even bigger dumbass then I thought you were face "well that is the dumbest things I have ever heard how are mates suppose to be friends without getting all mate like" I said using her words and she looked at me like im a stupid ass hole " we can do it" she said "I Wil give it a shot I guess" I said and she smiled giving me a hug that lasted a little to long but im glade it did besides maybe I can get her to be completely mine I guess we will see what  happens.....