Things Change

O N E | Revised

T R I S

Honestly I woke up before my alarm went off, I was super anxious cause it's my junior year of highschool, there's only 1 more year and I cannot wait to get out of here, but most say 11th grade is the most important.... that's probably why im up so early and the fact that i've grown so much as a person since middle school. I started to fill out a little and I wear contacts now, glasses when im lazy cause either way tris is bad bitch if you haven't learned already. I've been up for about an hour now and I was so deep in thought that the sound of my alarm clock scared the hell out of me, with a swiftness I turned it off and regretted the time I spent looking at the ceiling cause my exhaustion was starting to kick back in.

"trissssssssss" it was at this moment I knew it was time to roll out of bed cause that was the sound of my older brother not giving me any type of peace.

"IM COMING!"  I'd rather him not come in here and get on my nerves but it would it be Caleb if he didn't? Besides I heard his foot steps getting closer.

"Morning twerp" he chirped at me as he peeked through the door.

"..... where did twerp?-  you know what I don't care just please get out.

"you aren't even half dressed yet? I heard you playing blueberry faygo for about an hour now???"

"you asking too many questions, I'll make sure im ready in 30" I say as I shove him as the room.

"make it 25!" he yells.

I sigh and look at my closet, I think I'm gonna keep it simple a graphic tee and high-top vans never hurt anyone. On top of that people are overrated anything I put on will be to please myself and myself alone. I go to school with individuals that will have the audacity to bully another person for not wearing designer but then hop on snapchat and ask for a ride.......Someone please make it make sense at this point. Also,is it bad that I'm out growing a full face of makeup? I mean literally after this shower I'm putting in my contacts, putting on my lashes and using some lip-gloss.

After taking 30 minutes like I originally said I would I went out to the living room just to see that Caleb is already gone, I didn't
even get the chance to cuss before my phone buzzed. "I said 25 minutes lil sis sorry"

Caleb got left on read, and I walked outside irritated already and I didn't even get on the campus yet, isn't that lovely?

across the street I spot four walking to his car and I get the undeniable need to roll my eyes... the dude is too arrogant for his own good, he looks up from his phone and makes eye contact with me smirking. I just look away and text uriah. "heyyy fam did you make it to school yet?"

"yeah zeke was amped from like 5 am this morning cause it's him and four senior year and they already making plans to go out with a bang" he typed.

"I bet they are it wouldn't be zeke if he didn't, but I was asking cause Caleb left me... And I really don't wanna call a lyft or walk."

"I would but like I said the older bro was amped so we already here... honestly I'm jealous lol cause im ready to gtf myself and zeke not gonna give me the keys. why don't you try riding with four?"

I Just stared at my screen in disbelief and was livid that he would even suggest that, uriah knows I cannot stand four.

"don't leave me on read I'm serious tris like he hasn't even really done anything to you since middle school, I know it wasn't easy to handle but we are grown try to at least be cordial with him."

instead of doing the back and forth I just decided to call him, the dial tone barely went off before he answered. My foot was tapping with irritation cause cordial wouldn't be a problem if I could tolerate being around him.

"Uri... I can be cordial from a distance I'm not trying to do this shit right now." I say.

"Nope, and its already arranged that's why he didn't pull out the driveway yet."

"wait how the heck?....... zeke.fuck."

"YUUUUP and he is waiting for you, cause I already texted and asked him enjoy luv bye" he said before I could protest.

My eyes wander to four's windshield and he is already looking at me tapping his watch mouthing "chop chop luvbug"

The pride in me me decided to simmer and just walk to the car, once I got to the passenger side after walking across the street four looked at me up and down cause he was expecting something other then my attitude.

"So, no thank you huh?" He says

I remained silent cause I didn't trust myself not to go off on him. Four then proceeded to turn the car back off, My expression had my confusion on full display.

"I got time you know, I only got like 2-3 classes, your the one that gotta get to school." He reminded.

"Four what do you want ?" I snapped .

"I want you to pull the g string out your ass & lighten up."

At that moment I don't know what snapped in me but I grabbed his collar and pulled him close. "If you know what's good for yourself, you are gonna start this car and stop playing cause I'm not gonna play this pissy ass game with you." I hiss through my teeth.

Four didnt say anything else he just gave me a look back & nodded while he started the car, then he sighed and turned the car off again.

"If you want me to walk just say that!" I yell aggravated.

"I'm not trying to be difficult with you tris I just want you to stop bitching at me, I wanna be on good terms with you okay ? I can't take back what I did as a child but this isn't helping."

"I really don't know what's going on in that pea sized brain of yours, but you don't get to tell me how to act when YOU caused it." I hiss.

I could feel the resentment in my voice cause it disgusted me, it was so easy for him to basically just tell me to get over it cause he doesn't know how it feels to be alone or feel like life isn't worth living anymore.

Four started the engine once more & said "you know what... fuck it forget I said anything if you wanna hold on to that it is what it is."

"And will sir privileged."

Fours grip on the steering wheel got so tight the imprint was on his steering wheel cover by the time we got there, and it was silent you couldn't ignore the animosity in the air if you tried. Once we pulled up Uriah & zeke was already waiting for us, four slid out the car visibly irritated.

"Heeeey tris! Wassup four?...... uh why you look so mad?" Uriah asked.

"Wasshanin tris? Wassup fo- yo fam what got you looking that hot at 7:02 am?" Zeke truly looked ready to hear what got four upset this early in the morning.

Four sucked his teeth. "Listen, this girl has no intentions of letting shit go and to avoid going off on her imma just do as she please and keep my distance." He said walking away.

Zeke and Uriah looked at me and I shrugged. "I said what I said, and he is terrible at trying to clear the air! Pull the g string out your ass? Now you tell me how the fuck I'm supposed to deal with that?"

Uriah sighed. "Four what the hell? I told you to just tell her what you told me what's so hard about that!"

"She was being a bitch."

"YOU MADE HER SUICIDAL!" Uriah whisper yelled. "The Fuck four did you expect her to be super cheery with you right away ?"

Four's eyes widened a little bit and his expression softened immediately, it was like it pained him for some reason.

"Suicidal?..... what."

"Yes four." I said sourly.

"Tris, I am so sorry I'm just not good at saying sorry..."

I really didn't have the energy to deal with him so I didn't reply I just walked inside. Uriah tried telling me to come back but ignored him & I could feel four's eyes burning in the back of my head as I walked away.