Midnight Rose (Kaimaki vampire AU)

Chapter 20: Will

Anything in italics in this chapter is someone writing. The reason why this chapter is out so quick is because I had pre-written all of it long before today. Don't ask why I did it, I needed to write it down before it leaves my mind.

Maki's POV

How do you start a will? Do you start with "to whom it concerns" or just "dear"? I guess it doesn't matter since no one will be reading this. To be honest, I don't even know if this is just a will, or something to tell myself about what my life was.

I am not even sure how my life will end. Strange circumstances brought me into this place. I was kidnapped by a group of perverts. Right now, "the Chief" won't stop feeling me up like I'm a prostitute or a piece of meat. It's too late to plead my case to the judge, but all that I have done, I only did to keep breathing. I guess that this is a fitting end for someone like me. Even if they don't kill me, I'll do the deed myself. That's what I've been trained to do after all if I had ever been captured.

I didn't have any humble means in life I suppose. I never knew my parents. I was just dumped at an orphanage like trash with only my name scribbled on a scrap piece of paper. As I got older, I got saddled with taking care of the younger children. I never liked kids, but they liked me for some reason. I guess, to them, I've got a friendly personality. It was annoying then, but now that I look back on it, that was probably the only time I ever felt loved, even if it was just bratty kids showing me affection.

Then, those men came. I didn't know what they wanted at first. I just assumed that they were there to adopt a kid for some rich family. They came everyday for a week straight. They watched all the children closely. I didn't mean to, but I overheard them say that they were going to regularly donate money to the orphanage if they took in a kid. The orphanage needed the money desperately, so I volunteered, with the soul promise that the men would keep their word. Now that I look back on it, those men were scouting for new talent.

New talent for assassins.

I had some nature skill, but that wasn't enough. They brutally trained me, forgetting that I too was human. I was nothing more than a weapon in need of being sharpened to them. I would spend nights not being able to sleep and days being unable to eat. I was even tortured to withstand the pain of my targets fighting back. They even taught me techniques on how to kill myself if I was ever caught to keep myself from giving up information.

See? My life was nothing more than being a weapon. I've come to terms that I truly am a monster, and that I don't deserve to have friends. The last time I made a friend I think was when I unfortunately had to kill her. It made me numb doing that. It's clear that, I'm no longer a human anymore.

I guess that this is a fitting for someone like me. After all, a murderer like me never deserves a happy ending.

To the worthless girl and the 17 years she had wasted away, goodbye.

I never thought that I would have write out a will like this but it helped to distract me from what was going on outside my head. This...creep was still monologuing like a villain in a cheap show or whatever. I don't know what he was saying, I gave up listening to him for a long time now. I couldn't even feel him massaging my shoulders or sniffing my hair or whatever the hell he's doing at the moment. I was getting ready to sign it off properly when a large hand suddenly stopped me. I look up at the person and I could feel my eyes widen a little in surprise.

Kaito? What are you doing here?

He's an idiot. Half the time I can't tell what's going through his head. He won't leave me alone whenever he sees me. But there's something sweet about that. He always makes eye contact with me, engaging me in a way to whatever it is that he is doing. He is probably the only person that I could feel more open to. He's the first person for a long time who treated me as a human. Call me what you will, but he makes me feel safe and warm every time I see him. I've never thought that anyone would make me feel like this. My heart beats fast and I feel light, like all my burdens had been wiped away. I could never tell him what I am, he'll leave me for sure. But something tells me that it's not true. He seems so genuine.

Kaito...I...

I'm done feeling like this. If I'm going to die, I want to die being someone that you can be proud of. My only request is that you never forget me. And maybe, we'll meet again in another life, so I can tell you how I feel.