Jack POV-
Silence. Only the slow beeping of whatever it is that they have connected to me can be heard.
OK, maybe the medication is affecting me a bit. I know I have no filter, but just saying that in front of everyone is pushing it even for me. I know that I probably just broke Jaycee's heart. Just yesterday we were happy and talking about the future. Now she heard me admit what I had been hiding from. What I had buried so deep down that it took something like this for me to face it.
I do feel bad about that. I really didn't even realize it myself until I was face to face with my own mortality.
I know that I probably just made Olyvia travel toward quickly toward nuclear. Not only did I just say that I was in love with Gabrielle who she feels so strongly about. I just hurt her best friend. I can't really blame her for the way she feels. After everything, she is pretty justified for hating Gab, but hurting her best friend is probably worse to her. She may never forgive me for that. I am not sure I deserve it anyway. In the end I did lead her on, I did lie to her about being over Gab. That I didn't know that I was lying is no excuse. I could have found out if I didn't run and hide from it.
The problem is, it's not her life. I love my sister, but it's my life. Well at least what's left of it is mine. I can remember it all very clearly.
When the guy came up to the three of us and pulled the gun I was first shocked and then I admit, scared. When he demanded we give him our money and things I was fully prepare to just give them to him. So were John and his girlfriend Becca. But we never got the chance. When that couple walked around the corner he got spooked. He started to turn the gun toward them. I guess he must have lost focus because when Becca started to hold out her purse he whipped it back toward her. I could see it in his eyes. He was going to pull the trigger.
I admit, it wasn't bravery that made me step in front of her. I was scared bleep-less. I have no idea why I did it, my body just moved on it's own. I am not sure I will ever understand why. I mean I am not a coward but I am not a hero either. It just happened.
The first loud bang startled me. I mean I live in Missouri. I have shot guns before, but this seemed especially loud. Then there were two more bangs really quick. I could see his face. He was looking at me in horror. I think at that moment he realized what he had done.
For a few seconds I really thought he had somehow missed. I mean I didn't feel anything but a little wetness on my chest and stomach. I was confused at how he had missed. Then I felt the pain. I had about three seconds to look down at the sudden pain in chest before I lost all strength in my legs and fell to the ground.
I can distinctly remember hearing his footsteps as he ran off. I could hear Becca screaming and John talking into his phone. I was in a lot of pain but I was also detached. I realized that I was dying. It's strange how knowing that you are dying can be both the scariest and the most calming of thoughts.
I remember laying on the cold ground and thinking about my life. It gave me something to concentrate on instead of the pain. I seemed to remember everything. The first day of kindergarten. The first time I met Gabrielle back in second grade. The day I decided to become a Youtuber.
My whole life just kept coming to me. The day I asked Gabrielle out. The last day of high school. The day we hit two million subs. The day she broke up with me. My twenty first birthday. The day I asked Jaycee out. Lunch last week at the sushi place. I was seeing everything at once, good and bad, funny and ugly.
By then the paramedics had me in the ambulance and were working on me. If I had the strength I would have probably tried to cut a joke. I just didn't have the strength.
