Shawn ended the call and hung his head. It had killed him to see her so tortured but he had been there and he recognised it. He didn't know if it would work for her but he did know she needed to cut through all the crap and find out what was going on inside. He had felt it when they were together, and he knew she had surprised herself by letting go and giving in to her desires, he could tell it wasn't her usual behaviour even before she told him so. He wanted so badly to tell her he'd go with her, he'd take her somewhere and they could find that thing she needed together, but he knew she had to do this on her own. He knew if they were to have a relationship in the future, she had to find that part of herself.
But she wasn't the only one whose creativity had been energised by their connection with each other. His own songwriting had taken a ninety degree turn and his team had noticed. His themes had always been desiring a girl from afar, looking for love, being disappointed when he didn't find it, general sexy girl type songs and more mundane subjects. He had a whole album and more recorded but in the past month he had written more real and better music than he ever had. He knew they were all about her, and his team knew something had changed but they had no idea of his interactions with Camila and so although they guessed there was a woman involved, they had absolutely no idea who it was, and for once it suited him to have something to himself, usually they knew everything. Also, it was all so good nobody wanted to pollute the vibe, everyone felt that his songwriting had moved to a higher level and it was exciting to be a part of.
He had originally had an idea for what the album was to be, and now he had turned that on it's head. His creative team was tearing their hair out because now he wanted new artwork and a new name and a new single, the timeline was going to have to change, the release date would have to be pushed back, but despite all that, Ziggy was thrilled with the new music, so were his co-writers and they had managed to set him up with a couple of new and established writers and producers who fitted the new album feel perfectly. So he knew what Camila was going through, and he hoped he could do for her with his advice what she had done for him. The feelings she had evoked in him had unlocked something in him and the creativity that was rushing out was unrivalled in his experience.
They had spoken about the connection, the feeling of fate that had pushed them together, and now he thought it was about way more than the incredible sex. Meeting each other had literally changed their lives, and careers, forever.
He sat and went through his emails before he turned in and found the final paperwork for the lemon had come through. It had settled and the cheque had been sent to his bank. He was now homeless, in the US at least. He would always have his condo in Toronto. Knowing he needed to be in LA in a few weeks to attend the award night and work on the music video for his lead single, he made a note to book a hotel until he had time to find an apartment to lease. He didn't think he was ready to buy a place in LA again just yet.
Before LA though, he finished his recording session and then decided to drive from New York up to Toronto and visit his family for a week. The weather was late summer hot and he was glad to arrive at his condo and relax. He decided to have a couple of days there before heading up to Pickering. He unpacked and poured a glass of wine then sat outside looking out at the city, thinking of Camila. He felt a strange serenity, he knew that somehow she was a permanent fixture in his life now, on whatever basis, but although it might be a friendship of sorts right now, it was destined to be a lot more.
He looked at his phone. He didn't know where she was right now, or what time it was. It was most likely she was in LA, and it was almost midnight, so if he wanted to talk to her, he should do it now. He held the phone in his hand, his heart quickening, and then took a deep breath and rang her. It rang a few times and he was about to hang up when she answered.
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FALLING FOR SHAWN
FanfictionWHAT IF....Shawn actually mentioned in an interview once that as a kid he wanted to be on Disney. What if that happened for him? WHAT IF....Camila had actually come third on X-Factor as a solo artist, just like she planned? Years down the track and...
