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Jacket

Sorry in advance for this chapter being lackluster lol I kinda lost motivation, so if I don't put out anything at all I probably won't be able to continue with the story ;-; but anyways, here it be!!

Tw: mention of bullying and slurs

After the day of the test, everything went downhill for me. I still walked to and from school with Tsukki, but our conversations were either just two hellos and some silence, or very short and awkward. That's what I wanted, right? I told myself I was going to quit annoying him, and that's exactly what I'm doing. Because of that, I didn't ask him for help with my science homework, either. He offered me help on Thursday and Friday, but after that he just left me alone. I guess he finally realized that he didn't have to worry about me anymore. But, he still never missed lunch with me, and he always walked with me to our second class. Like, he waited for me to finish fake packing up to walk with me.

Speaking of the fake packing up, my "conversations" with Itsuki and Habiki had only gotten longer and more cutting since Wednesday. Sometimes, they would just call me a fag in creative ways, and other times they'd point out every imperfection on my face. It never got too physical, nothing more than knocking something off my desk or patting my back with enough force to leave a little bit of a red mark on my skin, and that's why I don't think any students in my class bothered to say anything. Well, that and the fact that Itsuki and Habiki were both popular and terrifying. I have no reason to tell anyone either, considering I am probably just making a big deal out of this. They aren't punching me or anything, and all they're telling me is things I already know. But that doesn't stop me from crying every day when I get home.

Volleyball practice went just about as poorly as everything else had since Tuesday. I just haven't been in the right headspace to properly play, and the team has caught on to that. While they don't say anything to my face, I know they've noticed. Just yesterday, Suga asked me if I was feeling alright because "I didn't seem to be very focused during practice." I couldn't tell him the truth, that would have been selfish. Instead, I told him I hadn't been getting enough sleep. Not technically a lie. It did take me much longer to fall asleep at night recently. But hey, maybe today is a new day. It's been one full week since Wednesday, so I should be adjusted to my new routine. The first step in my new routine: wake up fifteen minutes before my alarm is set to go off with a pit in my stomach, then get ready for the day to come.

I realized right as I stepped out of the front door of my house that it was much, much colder than I thought it was going to be. As I was about to turn around and grab a thicker jacket, I noticed Tsukki at the end of my driveway, right on time as usual. Now I can't go back inside. I don't want to look like an idiot, and I don't want to burden him. What if he was late to practice because I was too stupid to go get another jacket? I can handle the cold for one day.

Tsukki acknowledged me with a nod, and I responded with a smile. We continued on our way after that, and I could feel myself get colder with each step. It was only autumn, but the wind made the temperature drop a lot. In just a few minutes I was shivering.

"Yams, I have an extra jacket you know," Tsukki stated, looking down at me with a slightly concerned expression. Am I supposed to decline that offer? I mean, it definitely goes against my self-sufficient plan of action, but I didn't ask for his jacket! Who is it really going to hurt?

"Can I have it? I'm sorry, I forgot how cold it was going to be today!" I replied to him as he slid his bag off of his back to get his coat out.

"Thank you, Tsukki!" I exclaimed, quickly putting on the jacket. He must have been cold as well, considering how red his face was. Tsukki isn't too much bigger than me, but for some reason the sleeves on his clothes are a little too long for me causing me to have sweater paws.

After that, our walk was silent once again. I returned to sulking about my day, but at least now I could sulk while having the scent of Tsukki's jacket enveloping me in waves of sandalwood and clove. That was a plus, right?

Practice was fine. Not special or exciting by any means, but I wanted each second that passed to turn into hours. The pit in my stomach only grew with each tic of the clock hanging on the far wall of the gym, then the bell rang. I tried to deepen my breaths and stay calm, but each day since last Tuesday, Itsuki and Hibiki have gotten just a bit more hostile, and I have no idea what they're going to do today.

Eww that was questionable ;-; I can't sit down and write 2,000 so I had to cut this chapter short :-\ hopefully I can get the next one out pretty soon! Trust me is going to reach 1k views soon, so literally love y'all the most! you are all simply stunning, and I'm proud of you for getting through the day today! <3333