Freak Accident

11.

3 weeks later...
Jay POV
Erin had been out of hospital for a day now. She had decided to stay with Voight, I wanted her to stay with me but things were a little weird with us. I spent most days at the hospital with her, taking a leave of absence to take care of Ellie, but we still hadn't had the talk. It was obvious those feelings had not disappeared and the spark was still there between us yet nothing had been spoken of, nor had the reason for keeping the pregnancy a secret. I didn't want to push her so I kept putting it to the back of my mind, concentrating on Erin's recovery.

Tonight was weird though, being here on my own having had Ellie here every night for the past 3 weeks. It was too quiet, but it was time for her to be with her mom. Luckily I will be seeing them everyday, help out whilst Voight is at work. I just wish that both of them was here.

I rolled over in bed to an empty space, it got me thinking of the times she had spent here. I loved her. I had to talk to her! Grabbing my phone I text - 'Hey Erin, you awake? Can we talk? Jay x'. But I heard nothing back.

Erin POV
I was laid in bed feeding Ellie when I heard my phone vibrate on the bedside table. I reached over, it was a message from Jay. He wanted to talk. This feeling of anxiety flew through my body. Unsure if I was ready for this talk, I clicked the phone off and carried on feeding our daughter. After changing and putting her in the bassinet, I found myself just staring at the perfect little girl in front of me, I could already see so much of Jay in her. The anxious feeling I had turned into an intense amount of love in my heart, not just for Ellie but for Jay too. Hobbling back over to the bed I picked up my phone, scrolled down to Jay <3 and hit the green button.

J- Erin?
E- Hey.
There was a brief pause, neither one of us knowing what to say I guess. So i made the first move.
E- Look Jay, I didn't tell you I was pregnant because I wasn't sure you wanted to talk to me again, let alone this. So I didn't, but I wanted to. Then the longer it went on the harder it got. But Jay I'm glad you know. You are an amazing dad. I am so sorry it took this long and I'm sorry for the way I left, I'm sorry for everything.
My voice began to break as I felt tear glaze my eyes.
J- Erin. I... I...
E- I know, I do too. We'll talk about this all tomorrow?
I needed to go, I was exhausted and I really didn't want to cry on the phone to him. I think he understood.
J- Yeah sure. You get some rest.
E- Jay...
J- Yeah?
E- It'll all work out. I promise. Night.
J- Night Erin.

As I put the phone down I let the tears fall. I couldn't believe that even after everything I put him through he still loved me. Overwhelmed by everything, i grabbed my phone to send one last text before switching the lights out, letting exhaustion take over.

Jay POV
My stomach was in knots. I had so much I wanted to say to her, no, I needed to say to her. I wanted her. I wanted Ellie. I wanted us, here as a family. I could tell she was exhausted though, so I let her get some rest. I turned over onto my back, resting the phone on my stomach I looked up at the ceiling. My mind had been plagued with feelings of unknown for weeks. Tonight this had gone. Leaving a calm silence in the room. That was until my phone went off unexpectedly, i nearly jumped out of my skin. I looked at the screen it was Erin. 'I've missed you! I love you Jay Halstead'. "I love you too Erin Lindsay".