it feels like i have two different minds, one wants to live the other wants to destroy every inch of myself. Dissolve in selfhate. Always thinking negatively. Feeling like people judge me the whole time. That I'm weird. Not worth the effort. Unlovable. Just another person. But why would they, they got better things to do than to even think a second about me in any way. Still, I'm so fucking stuck in other people's opinions. I'm so fucking sick of it. It's never changing, its been like this for years. People are exhausted effort. As much as i try to please fucking everyone, try to care and to help everyone. Consider everyone. Its no use bc you're not getting anything back. Only more hate. More disappointment. Its never gonna change, I've learned that in my past years. Im always gonna be alone with this fucked up thinking and fucked up mind and I'm so fucking sick of it i want it to fucking end. But i can't bc fuck. Live is so great. But why THEFUCK can't it be great for me. What is wrong with me that I've never been able to connect with people. Talk with people genuinely. I don't fucking understand why I have to be this way. I want do be fucking normal. Why does everything has to be hard when its not. When its not supposed to be. The tiniest fucking things stress me out and make me overthink. I want to be fucking normal.
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broken days
De Todojust thoughts of mine you don't have to read if you don't want to. sorry for any mistakes, english isn't my first language ~stay strong~
