Made for you Arthur Curry LS

I don't know what to do

Third person POV

Thomas stood outside his sons room. It's been a year. A year! Since Arthur's soulmate, Elizabeth. Died. He knew Arthur must be in pain due to losing her. But he can't just lock himself away in his room. She wouldn't want that for Arthur. Even though he never met Elizabeth, but with the way Arthur spoke of her when he was little. He felt like he knew her without even meeting her and he knew that she wouldn't want Arthur to be like this. But he had no idea how to get his son out of his room. He raised a hand, about to knock. He sighed and knocked anyways. "Arthur. Son, come on, you can't lock yourself away, you know she wouldn't have wanted this. We both know that", he said softly, but he knew his son could hear him. The door opened and there stood Arthur.

Bags under his eyes, a bit of weight loss. He looked like shit. "Yeah well, I'm trying to come to terms with the truth that I got my soulmate killed, so if you would kindly leave me to it, I would love that", he said sarcastically. Thomas sighed. He knew his son was in pain. A lot of pain. He left the same way when his wife died. Even the others came over and tried to talk him out of getting out and about. But nothing worked. "It's been a year son, don't you think you should go and see her? I mean I can't be the only one visiting her", he said. He knew he hit a rough spot when he said that. He saw Arthur glaring at him.

"I don't deserve to go see her, not when I know I didn't protect her. When I know I got her killed. She wouldn't want anything to do with me, my soulmate is dead because of me, and I have to live with that", Arthur mumbled under his breath. He went to close the door. But Thomas put a foot in the door. "I felt the same way Arthur, it was because of me, your mother is dead. She fell in love with me and it got her killed", he said. He could hear his own voice crack due to sadness. He still missed her. He still loved her.

Arthur sighed and shook his head. "I don't know pops, I don't know. It just feels like a giant hole in my heart, and it hurts all the time, it burns so much", he said. Normally he wouldn't be sharing any of this to anyone. But this was his dad. He could trust him. Thomas put a hand on his sons shoulder. "I know how you feel, it does hurt most days, but that shouldn't be keeping you from living, I remember the promise you guys made to each other, if one were to die, the other would have to live for the other, don't go breaking that promise so. Live for her, as much as you can, even though I didn't know her, she loved you so much, I can tell. Go and live, she would have wanted that for you, we both know that", he said. Thomas looked up when he heard the sound of his son sniffling. "I miss her so much pops. I miss her so much, it hurts so much, I don't know how I can live without her. It's impossible. I can't, I can't live without her", he said as he cried. Tears streamed down his cheeks. He didn't know how he could live without her. His chest hurt, his heart hurt, his soulmark hurt. Everything hurt. Every single day.

Thomas wrapped his arms around his son. He let Arthur cry in his arms. It hurt to see his son this way. He knew the exact pain that his son was feeling. And he knew exactly how that pain felt. "You don't have to go and start today, but she would have wanted you to get out and live your life. You know her, she would have kicked your ass if she saw you this way", he said with a sad smile on his lips. Arthur laughed through his tears. He knew his dad was right. His love would kick his ass if she found out he was like this. Breaking his promise. But he didn't know how he could go out there and see everything. When she wasn't at his side. Arthur wiped his tears. He sniffled. "Just not today pops, I need a day to get my shit together", he said. Thomas nodded. "Of course son, take as much time today", he said patting his sons shoulder. It pained him to see his son like this. He could see how much Elizabeth meant to him. How much she made him happy. How she affected him. It was the same way he was with his wife.

"Why don't you go lay down and I'll make you something to eat", he said patting his sons shoulder again. Arthur just nodded and walked into the room. He closed the door after him. Arthur looked at the wall and saw her photo. He sniffled and caressed the picture. "I miss you so much baby girl. You have no idea how much. I don't know how I'm going to keep my promise, but I'll do it for you. I promise, I do if for you Lizzie. I love you so much", he said as more tears rolled down his cheeks. He sniffled and crawled into his bed. There was a side that he didn't dare lay on. That was supposed to be her side. It was the cold side of the bed, and he didn't dare lay on that side.

"I miss you", he muttered to himself. He missed her so much. It pained him to think of her everyday. But she was the only thing keeping him going. And sometimes he thinks he can see her, but he knows it's just a illusion. She's not real. Not anymore.

Not anymore.