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Jimin- Self Harm Pt 1

Requested by @aetaestic 

Btw.. Really really sad part at the end! Enjoy 💜

WARNING (Swearing, blood, violence, self-harm and gore. DO NOT REPEAT AT HOME! YOU SHOULD NEVER DO THIS! STAY SAFE!)

RM: "Jimin! We are late again! Let's go!" RM screamed at Jimin.

Jimin: "Coming!"

RM: "We don't want to "Jimin" today!" 

Jimin: "I know!" He yelled back at him. He finally ran down the stairs and everybody went outside and drove to dance practice. They weren't too late but about five minutes late, which was still a big deal for them. They danced to "MIC Drop" "ON" "Not Today" "FAKE LOVE" "DNA" and a few more. They were exhausted by the third song! So they had to redo a lot of songs and parts. Each member messed up a move or two, but Jimin messed up the most. He had no idea why he felt shitty and doing a terrible job at dancing. He was good last week. And the week before that, but something about this week was different. They all yelled at him and made him upset and feeling bad about himself. He just wanted life to be over. 

Jimin's POV 

Voice: "Stop failing Jimin!"

Other voice: " You're a failure!"

Voice: "You suck!" More and more hatful words came ringing in my ears. I couldn't stop hearing them, they came coming and coming. I don't know how to get them away from me. We were finally on a break, but it was only five minutes. Definitely not long enough. I sat on the bench, relieved that I can say and not move my legs. Jungkook came over to me and sat on the bench.

Jungkook: "You okay? You're messing up a lot." He said looking at me.

Jimin: "I'm fine. Just today is not my day I guess." I said sheepishly. In the end, he didn't believe me and just sat on the bench and looked at me for a few seconds before looking at something else. I felt like a failure. I can't deal with all this hate and suffering.. After dance practice we all went home and I could finally go to my room and be by myself. I spent hours in my room, and no one came in. I opened the door and heard absolutely nothing. Not even a fate whisper. 

Jimin: " What the hell? Where did they go?" I though to myself. I decided to go downstairs and check things out. No one was downstairs, but there was a simple note on the counter. It said;

"We thought you were asleep so we let you sleep. We are at the store, getting some things. We  will be back later."

I finished the note, kinda upset they thought I was asleep. Bitch I was wide awake! I screamed in my mind. Clearly they don't need me anymore. I got a knife from the kitchen, making sure it was the biggest we had. I took a jacket and hid my knife in my jacket. I went outside of our huge dorm and went outside. (Since most BTS self harm stories are them hurting themselves in the bathroom or room I'm trying to spice it up)

I didn't think that it'd be dark by now, but I couldn't really see people in front of me. I held my knife close by to make sure it didn't fall out. I looked for a place that no one would go. There it was. I found a deep ally around that had garbage bans in the front, but in the back not even a stray cat would be seen. The full moon could be seen from miles away and the stars making it even more beautiful and bright to look at. I took my knife out and just stared at it. I still made sure no one was there before I literally murder myself.

I questioned myself many times; "Why the fuck am I doing this?" "Am I seriously about to do this?" Even though I knew it was crazy and stupid, I still did it. I plugged the knife into my stomach. I did it so hard the knife could have gone all the way through. I closed my eyes and winced in pain and agony. Blood poured out on my hands, clothes, the knife and the ground. I slowly fell to the ground. Now I wanted to pull the knife out, but I was too weak to. My breathing became extremely rapid that I couldn't breathe properly. Tears were forming in my eyes, racing down to my bleed mouth. There was no way I could survive this..

BTS' POV

We got home from the store and Suga called for Jimin, but he did not answer. The members looked at each other with curiosity and worry. They thought that he was still in his room, but he wasn't. Where did he go? Did he run off. The members were confused and they called and called him and texted him over and over, but no answer..

(Hope you liked it. Hope it isn't bad. :) I'll work on Taehyung- Kidnapped so wait for that!)