The demon in my mind

Empty vessels

Stella Pierre:

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Loud voices, suffering, yells, pain, anger. This is what I feel and hear when I'm in my mind...

It all started when I was 5 in some grade I'm too lazy to mention. I couldn't sleep for days and blood was coming out of my ears. Back then I was this naive girl thinking life was cupcakes and rainbows while I'm 17 now hating life and people in it. When I was 5 I made an imaginary friend named Abby G.She was this little monster. Yes, I know a dumb name for a monster but I was 5. OK..No one could see her but I could see her perfectly

It was kind of hard to make friends because either I was too black or too white. So I always sat by myself until I turned 10. On my 12th birthday, Abby left and I couldn't see her anymore and I felt lonelier. Once my dumb dad paid some 13-year-olds to be my friends. Back then my dad was messed up but he was there for me. After a few months of my dad's corrupted plan and Abby was gone, I could not sleep.

One night I was at my friend's house. There were noises in my head when I slept and I tried mostly listening to music but it did not help. In my mind I could see suffering, pain, yelling like someone was dying in a hospital. I could see my dad bleeding in the hospital and my mom crying for someone to help her.

Because I was bloody 12 years old, I thought it was a nightmare and in the corner, I saw Abby. My mom was crying because she was also injured, but my dad's wounds were worse. He got stabbed in the heart with a knife. My mom had very deep cuts everywhere. I thought maybe she was protecting my dad from someone....okay more like something... I heard the doctor talking to my mom saying he can make it if he has a heart transplant and there was a waiting list." It's going to be too late. He can have my heart.I love him entirely to do this.", mom said sadly."Do you know he might not make it and there is a 25 per cent chance he can make it from these wounds."The doctor implied. She agreed and they had the transplant . After a few hours which felt like seconds, Abby was moving around and she overheard the doctor speaking to my neighbour who bought them in. The doctor looked sad and said that my mom's heart was too weak for my dad's body so they both died.

Abby: