Inside my world of monsters

Chapter three

I snapped back out of my thoughts.

"Have you heard anything I've said?" I don't understand why she wanted to be my friend anyway. Sure half the time I listened, and she vented to me. I opened up about my friends mostly. Nothing else though. That was too personal. That invaded my walls that I had worked to damn hard to build up. I wasn't just gonna let them be torn down that easily.

"No, sorry. What did you say?" Alex shook her head

"I said, maybe if you didn't look so dead all the time, people would talk to you." she stated.

"Maybe I don't want to be talked to. Maybe I want to absorb myself in my thoughts and never crawl out."

"Wow, what did those friends of yours do to you? Are you even human?" she laughed.

Although, I probably wasn't. I'm probably so far gone I'm incapable of being a human. I didn't want a girl friend who wanted to be girls all the time. I wanted my boys. I wanted to play some video games, and not have to talk about anything except that, that zombie had just come from the sky. I smiled at the memory. At the fact that I started crying about that zombie because it scared the living piss out of me.

"No, honestly I'm probably not." i laughed. It wasn't very authentic, but it was something.

"Well at any rate, I was also saying that we should hang out. We don't really have to do much. But you should come over." I had to admit she was gorgeous. She had this dark hair that barely came past her shoulders, and a face you can't forget. It ha sharp lines that models dreamed of having. And she had this perfect sized nose. Her body wasn't a stick, it had curves. It was a real body. Not those bodies society decided they wanted.

"Yeah sure, I guess I can get out of the house. It might be good for me."

"Of course it will be good for you! You're like this zombie. I don't know how people don't notice you though. I noticed you the first day and wondered if you were okay. I didn't ask until last week as you know, though."

I did know. Because I was there. This friendship thing we had going was escalating fairly quickly. It was very different from the friends I had had before. They never pried, they never really cared. They thought I was cool for the stupid things I did. She wouldn't she'd look at me different. I know it. And yet she seemed to care. to truly care. Which was the oddest thing, because I wasn't giving her anything to go off of.

"Yeah.." I was about to fade back into my thoughts. I thought the conversation was over. Apparently she thought differently. I wasn't entirely sure if I liked this girl.

"So you tell me about these so called friends a lot. What about boyfriends? First loves? Anything?"

Is she serious? I was the most repelling human in the universe and she wanted to talk about boys.

"Nope, just me. I haven't really liked anyone for awhile. I mean I know we're in high school, but I don't really care for a relationship. I mean look at me, I'm barely functioning as it is."

She was staring at me like I was something foreign. Great.

"Wait so you mean to tell me you're not interested in anyone? You don't look around the school and think wow I'd date him. Or he's sweet, anything?"

I bit my lip. I don't understand people. Sure being with someone would be nice. But I shut down that opportunity. It wasn't going to happen. I was having a hard enough time letting Alex be my friend. I couldn't be in a relationship. No way.

"Sure I find people attractive, but I just don't want to be in love. Actually I try and stay away from boys."

Alex rolled her eyes, the bell rang then and we got up from our desks. We both walked into the hallway and small talked for a bit until I got to my next class. It was weird having someone that cared. Even if she thought I was some crazy wild animal.