Stories

Are you serious? (Rant)

"I'm sorry, but the boys side is over there."
"Yeah, your bother had that haircut when he was here."
"Hey, my son has that haircut!"
"Wait, your not a dude?!?!"
"I'm pretty sure you have a dick."
"Is this your way of coming out as trans?"
"Hah, no dude is gonna date you now!"
"Okay the half-shaved head was cool, but now you just look like a dude."
"Are you serious! Why on earth would you pick that hair style?!?!"
"Okay, are you like, gay or something?"
"I can't believe his mother is letting him wear girls clothing."
This hurts, a fucking lot. None of my friends will see this and I don't want them to. I want you to know that if you see a person shopping in the woman's section of a store when there's a sign that clearly states which side is which, they know what their doing. They know that's the side tailored for people with vaginas and not penises. Even if they look like their a dude, IT DOESN'T MATTER. Just because it was meant for one thing doesn't mean another thing can't use it.
Yes, the brother and son jokes are alright for the first time, but after the third time it gets annoying, but I'm not as mad at you because you don't mean to be rude. You just don't understand that those jokes can wear down a persons self esteem after a while.
But the constant 'men aren't going to find you attractive', 'you've definitely got a dick/your not a dude', and the side comments from judgemental assholes 'I can't believe that boy's mother lets him wear girls clothes' is fucked up. Yes I can hear you, my mum can hear you, my sister can hear you, my dad can hear you, everybody around you can hear you. I don't give a shit about your opinion on my looks so don't fucking stage whisper it just as we walk beside you!
Have you ever thought that I don't want boys attention for my looks, who even said I wanted a boys attention in the first place? No, I don't have a dick and no, I'm not a boy. Seriously you are fucking retarded if you think I'm a boy after eight fucking years of "Samantha" being called out at school, the long hair until this summer, hanging out with girls, had a boyfriend, changing with girls, my bra strap even thought I "don't need it", and using the fucking girls washroom.
'Are you gay/trans?' No. I'm not a transgender, I do not want a dick. No, I am not gay. Yes, I am bisexual but I've known that before I fucking chopped off my hair, before I even knew what bisexual was. I thought I was a freak for a long time, noticing both girls and boys and I fucking cut because of it. And now, after I finally get over my addiction to cutting you jump on me with this shit?!?! My hair has nothing to do with my sexuality, just my personality.
Finally, the worst on this list. Why? Because my fucking friends say it. 'Seriously, you look horrible now' and 'why would you pick that hairstyle'? This hurts a shit ton because A) you are laughing AT me and not WITH me and B) I felt good about my choice until you came along and laughed to hard, asking why I got this. It fucking hurts. I guess it's my fault really, for pretending to be made of steal and always laughing off my pain. Even when I'm about to cry you won't see it until it's gone to far. You'll only ever see it in the dark or the earliest of morning hours.
Now that you've read this, there's a lesson here. Don't judge a person by their cover, or at the very least not out loud. Because they hear it, they see it, they fucking feel it. They feel it so fucking much they start to wonder if their is anything even left in the cavity in their chest. Don't question someone's physical appearance around them, don't tell them their not their gender for their looks, don't ask if how they wear their hair is a sign of coming out as something. Because most of the time, it's not!
So take the sticks out of your asses and mind your own fucking business.