cuts and kittens [bokuaka] (discontinued)

cuts we give to ourselves

tw: self harm, implied eating disorder

akaashi-

7:30 am

i stared at my reflection in the mirror, my gray eyes devoid of emotion. oh, how i hated this. my hair, my room, my life, it was all a mess. my hands shook as i ran my hand through my hair.

tears fell from my cheeks, and i calmly picked up the razor i kept in my cabinet. i looked down at it, then quickly swiped it across my wrist. it burned, but i felt better from the release it gave me. 

after giving myself three new cuts, i put the razor away. the blood seeped out of the cuts, and i watched, before wrapping gauze around my wrist to stop the bleeding. i wiped the tears from my cheek, and left the bathroom. 

walking into my room, i pulled a hoodie on over my t-shirt, to hide the cuts. 

my homework was done, and school didn't start for another half hour. it would make sense to eat and then leave for school, but i ignored the hunger pains in my stomach. 'i'm not hungry at all. if i want to lose weight, i should skip breakfast.' i told myself. might as well get to school early. 

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"hi kenma, good morning," i said, one of my only friends, kenma sitting in the chair next to me. 

he kept his eyes on his switch, but gave a soft "morning akaashi," then, he looked up from his game, and said "why are you always early to class akaashi?" 

i wasn't quite sure how to respond, so i just said "i don't know. maybe i just get ready quick." 

kenma seemed suspicious, but he let it slide with just a "hm. i guess!"

the bell rang, and kenma put away his switch, as out teacher took roll.

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a/n hi guys! this chapter is kind of just setting the stage for akaashi, and getting to know w him a bit i guess, and the next chapter will be the same but for bokuto. by the way, akaashi, and kenma go to nekoma, and bokuto, kuroo, and terushima go to fukurodani. i'm not sure if they will play volleyball in this story, but i don't think so, because both setters and three captains are at the same school. so yea that's all, sorry this is a short chapter.

-bella

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