𝑃𝑎𝑦𝑡𝑜𝑛 𝑀𝑜𝑜𝑟𝑚𝑒𝑖𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐽𝑎𝑐𝑘𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑡 𝐼𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑠

Idontwannabeyouanymore🪐 P.M

¡¡INCLUDES SCENES FROM BEFORE AND AFTER THEIR DAYS TOGETHER!!

NOT all of the lyrics are written down!

Don't be that way..

"YOU HAD A CHANCE TO FIX IT NOW YOUR'RE JUST A CHEATING CUNT"

"WELL YOU DIDN'T LET ME TAKE THAT FUCKING CHANCE. YOU LEFT ME IN THE DARK BY MYSELF"

"YOU COULD'VE SAID SOMETHING"

"I HATE YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK LOVE. FUCK LIFE. FUCK THE WORLD."

"No.." he softly whispered.

"You're bipolar!"

"Nah, don't be that way"

fall apart twice a day

I stood by my mirror staring intensely into my soul. Ugly piece of shit.

The second time I look myself in the mirror and break down today. Why me? He doesn't even want me.

i just wish you could feel what you say.

"You're stupid. How could I love you? You're such a bother to everyone. I didn't even love you. Oh I felt bad? You were so depressed and I felt bad. You're so fucking annoying how did I tell you I loved you"

show, never tell.

Tears ran down my cheeks. I had gone to stay with my parents for a while. Payton and I had an argument and violence was kinda included. All he really did was shove me into the floor and I was throwing heavy things at him.

"Hey" my mom smiled softly.

I kept my stare at the floor.

"Why are you crying?" She asked, wiping my tears.

"I'm okay" I smiled through my tears.

"Oh okay" she brightly smiled.

She walked off into the hallway.

I fell back onto the bed and continued my river.

but I know you too well..

"Tell me what's bothering you" Payton asked.

"I'm perfectly fine and happy, love.. why?" I smiled.

He walked up to me and cupped my face.

"You're eyes scream that they want to cry beb. I don't like seeing you this way. You can always rant to me, im here. Don't be sad be happy. For me? Please?"

I nodded.

How do I tell him that I was forced into a kiss...

got a mood that you wish you could sell.

"Why couldn't you tell me on your own?! Why-why— why would you let social media tell me?!!?"

He raised his hand.

I flinched.

He quickly pulled back.

"You- you thought I was- no I- you thought I was.. gonna.."

"I'm sorry" I cried.

"Why the fuck am I like this?!" He pulled at his perfectly made hair while I was sobbing in the back.

"My own fucking girlfriend is afraid of me!" He yelled as i flinched when his fist went through the walls.

Was I made from a broken mold?

"What's wrong with my fucking head" I dropped down to the floor and laid there, hopelessly.

We've made every mistake.

"I hit you, you cheated on me. What, there's more?"

Only you know the way that I break.

"Yeah, cause you know there's prettier girls than you that he could get with, easily" my sister joked.

Payton looked at the ground, as did I.

"Sasha shut the fuck up" my younger sister said.

If "I love you" was a promise, would you break it if you're honest?

"I love you"

"No you don't. You wouldn't have kissed him"

"Please understand that he pulled me in. I don't even know him, he grabbed me" I cried.

"I told you not to go to that party but you didn't listen to me as usual" he rolled his eyes.

"I told you I only went to let loose a little but you didn't wanna let me do anything. You're so controlling. I even offered you to come but you declined my offer" I sniffed

I don't wanna be you anymore.

I punched the mirror repeatedly until my knuckles were full of my red liquid. bleeding.

"I DONT WANNA BE YOU ANYMORE" I yelled at the broken mirror.

My brother bursted in and pulled me out of my bathroom. He hugged me and I tightly hugged back.

"I don't wanna be you anymore" I hopelessly let loose.

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