Her Blazing Desire (IB Hotel Series #1) ON-GOING

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Fourteen

"A-ANONG ginagawa mo rito?"

I managed to say all of that. Please, I don't want to cry, I'm too tired for that. Why is he even here? What does he need?

Nakatitig lamang siya sa akin, hinahangin ang kaniyang medyo humabang buhok habang siya ay nakapamulsa.

Nothing changed. He was still the man that I loved.

"I-I'm asking y-you, why are you here?" My voice twitched.

Oh, no. Not here.

"We need to talk," aniya.

Naring kong muli ang boses niya. How can he do this to me? My heart is aching over and over again. I composed myself and looked at him in the eyes.

"Wala na tayong dapat pag-usapan pa, I need to go."

Tumalikod nang muli ako sa kanya ngunit nahagilap niya ang mga kamay ko at saka sinalubong ako ng isang yakap.

I want to push him away but my hands are trembling. He hugged me so tightly that I couldn't even move.

"I miss you, Mellisa. I miss you, mahal."

Nanginig ang labi ko at tuluyan nang tumulo ang mga luha ko. Hindi dahil sa saya, kung 'di dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman.

I don't know why this hug feels suffocating. I'm hurting even more with his words.

"P-please, let me go, Robert."

He didn't do anything and hugged me more. He placed his hand on my head and slowly caressed it.

"Robert, please. Let me go," matigas kong sabi habang nag-uunahan pa rin sa pagtulo ang mga luha ko.

"Shh, don't cry."

I pursed my lips to stop myself from sobbing.

"J-just let me go, I can't breathe."

"I don't want to let you go," he said, almost out of breath.

Mabilis ko siyang tinulak. Marahas kong pinunasan ang mukha ko.

"But you already did! I was hurt, ginawa mo rin sa akin kung anong ginawa ng Papa ko sa Mama ko!" hindi ko na napigilan pang sigaw.

Sinubukan niyang lumapit pero umatras ako. He is crying, and I am hurting.

"'Wag mo naman akong pahirapan pa, I'm trying to be okay, can't you see? Nagiging okay na ako eh, bakit nagpakita ka pa?"

Mabilis siyang umiling habang may luha pa rin sa kanyang mga mata.

"I'm so sorry, I know what I did was wrong. I just did that b-because of Dad, he pushed me to date his friend's daughter. N-naipit ako! You know our situation, right? You should understand me too!" balik niya.

Mapait akong natawa. Binabaliktad niya pa ako?

"Then, is it my fault? How many more times do I have to understand you? Sa tatlong taon nating magkarelasyon, Robert! Ni minsan! Kahit minsan! Wala kang narinig sa akin tungkol sa pamilya mo! Tiniis ko ang pagtatago! Inintindi kita, naghintay ako, at umasa na balang-araw maipagmamalaki mo rin ako sa pamilya mo! Tiniis ko lahat! Kasi mahal kita."

Hindi ko mapigilan ang mapahagulgol. I covered my face and let myself cry.

"Pero sumuko ka hindi ba? Ikaw ang nanghingi nito! Mahal mo ako pero nakipaghiwalay ka, 'wag mo isisi—"

"Kung mahal mo ako, bakit ka pumayag?!" I cut him.

His lips parted. I saw how his eyes softened at me. He tried to walk towards me again but I stepped back from him. Again.