Arising

Grief

At first I was confused, I didn't realize what was going on and the level of adrenaline in my body at the moment wasn't helping. And then I see Kai's eyes...

I realized that he was the one that got shot.. and he was barely standing up,my heart stopped while I was watching in horror as he fell down.

"You're okay, it's okay, it's okay, just a little scratch that's all!"-I say to him as I was keeping him in my arms. He looked calm, so pale.

"Hang on, I am going to get you the help you need. You will be okay."-I don't think he was, the bullet had penetrated his back. I force a smile and he smiles back at me, blood coming out of his mouth.

He hushes me: "Just.. just let me look at you one last time."-he says removing a strand of hair from my cheeks. I started crying.

Then I felt it, I felt him leave. His lifeless body stood in front of me, his eyes opened: "No, no, no, no!!!!."

I scream, and scream, and scream. I don't know for how long. My ears were ringing from all the gunshots. I couldn't accept it, I refused to believe that those eyes, those shiny eyes that used to look so adorably into mine now were empty. The spark was gone.

I scream again. My throat was burning like I had drank acid. And then I looked down at Kai's eyes one last time and close them forever.

My vengeful side started to kick in while my eyes search for the man that shot him. He was coming towards me. I grab the knife Kai had and run towards him like mad. I didn't just want to kill him, I wanted to devour him, I wanted to eat every piece of his soul and destroy him.

He shot me in my right hip. I didn't stop. And luckily he ran out of bullets.

With the knife I had on my hands, I stab him in the eye. He screams in pain and falls down. His screams were giving me even more strength.

I stabbed him again this time in his lower abdomen, and again on his chest, and again, and again, again...

His blood was coming out everywhere going on my face, my neck and arms. I was showering in that warm and red liquid and enjoying every second of that mortifying moment.

And then I got scared of myself. I look at him, he was dead.

Kai!...

I run back to him. My hands were shaking as I hold his body close to mine and start crying out. I had never felt that much pain, it couldn't be compared to anything. It couldn't even feel my own wounds, but watching him dead killed me a thousand times. My chest felt hollow, yet heavy at the same time, my eyes became blurry from all the tears and I couldn't wipe them out because I refused to let go of his body.

The gunshots stop and the men that were left, my men, gather around. They didn't do anything, just stood there while I continue to cry with Kai's lifeless body in my arms.

...

I walk down the stairs to the hall. There was Kai's body inside a casket. As I got closer to him my legs started getting weaker and weaker. I wasn't crying, I had cried so much my eyes were red, but I didn't have any strength right now, I could only do minimal movements and my reflexes seemed to be in a poor condition.

I look at him. Still the most beautiful human being I had ever seen. His pale face was still so handsome and his curly hair so smooth. Even in death he could steal your heart.

"I remember the first time I saw you. My parents brought you home after buying you in the black market. They told me you were going to live with us from now on. My brother got so exited but I just stood there looking at you. You were terrified I could tell.

But after some time you got used to us. We were always inseparable even as kids, always best friends, always getting into trouble.

The fist time we kissed was when we were celebrating Golden week. We were just looking at some random lights acting like idiots when you leaned in and kissed me. Of course I kissed you back and it was probably one of the best moments of my life. I didn't talk to you for a week after that. Not because I was mad at you, but because I couldn't look at you and hide how I felt anymore.

Then we would flirt from time to time, later even more than that. But we never became a couple. I remember how mad you used to get when I got into relationships and how angry I would get when you had other girls. But no matter what we always had each other's backs.

You held me for so long when I would cry and when I couldn't do what my father wanted me to, you were always my support.

And then after my brother's death I left.

When I saw you again that day in the underground after my father's funeral it was like all those feelings came back. I tried to stay away from you but failed. And now you're gone. Forever.

You have made my life better in a million ways I don't think that I have ever loved anyone else but you. I have loved you in this life, probably in a past life and will love you in the next one.

If life ever brought me anything good it was you and now with you gone that part of me is gone as well. I will bury all my good parts with you, but you will always live forever in my heart.

My soul died with you my love and now I don't have anything left.

I will never stop loving you."

And then bend to peak his cold lips softly one last time.