The Stone Cold Crown

32 white roses and snow storms

Chapter 32

White roses and snow storms .

I regret walking away now. What if he chooses her? I know this is sudden but I can't hope but think to myself I don't love him but I definitely feel something towards him . It may not be strong but its definitely there. I had been contemplating for last hour and half in my room . Walking back and forth the room . Should I go back and talk to him ? But shouldnt he feel a little hurt at least. we both were constantly fighting  to hold our feelings back but now that we have a clear ground what should I do with those feelings? . I walked away from him should I have given him a chance? should I have spoken to him more about us? . 

But looked like  fate wanted me to do other things as London airways were blocked to go out state cause a snow storm was goanna hit the central areas it was a very rare case after many years but almost all areas  were on high alert .

I was just about to call my brother for the booking tickets when I heard knock on my door .

“ I TOLD HIM NOT TO SEND ANYONE . I DONT WANT TO TALK TO ANYON E WHO IS OUT THERE? "

"BABE  its us rose and raven we want to talk to you . We are here just to explain our side please let us in "

I had once not long time ago tried living without them . tried taking them out of my and lukes feelings equation but it did not work out doing the same again wouldnt help anyone and I deserve an explanation  form them at least so I let them in

The hugged me tight I had no idea I had more tear left after morning but I cried and cried and cried more .

I asked myself shouldnt I be happy why am I crying why does it feel like my heart is breaking I was finally letting him go why do I still fell the pain .

After some time the girls and I shifted to the bed and then put down the food the maid was holding when they entered the room.

"eat Ella . You havent had a bite since breakfast and he has forced us to make you eat more "

I looked at them glaring

" I am fine I Don't need his care or his fake attitude  ownership on me  "

"girl you have no idea he is in worst state of mind then you . but I wont take his side he behaved like this with you he might as well pay up for his sick deeds  "raven said looking at me with petty .

" I dont understand how any of this is true even if it was then I did not deserve to be treated so bad by him . He could have just told me he did not want me  . "

"guys are like that ellenor he did not have a normal family since he was born he was deprived of love he deserve to have . He might not know how love fells like Ella . It came his way but he was just to dumb to take it for himself . Don't be harsh on him. let him pay for his deeds but dont walk away from him ellenor , we know  how he behaves when he doesn't see you just for a day . His soul cannot stay without you  "

"but all this is so complicated rose . I understand you guys did your job you all were appointed but I never asked to be a part of this then how can he treat me like its my fault "
I sighed

"we understand . But just do us one favor ?"

"what is it babe ? "  I asked raven

"the airways are down for another  week as a snow storm is heading our way so you would be staying hear  for the next two weeks . In this  week can you please talk to him that is all we ask as his friends" 

"I am not sure raven I can just book a hotel you know " I trailed  off thinking about my options

"just give it a try Ella you dont know how things will turn out to be "

" I will think about it rose things are already bad I don't want to mess them up more "  I smiled at her .

they left after sometime and I walked over to the balcony and opened it doors and stepped out feeling the cold London air .

Thinking of all the memories I have had with everyone here made me smile . It reminded me of the new life I stared right here just a few months back . London has become home now walking away from it will be hard , and walking away from him is goanna be harder I dont know what will happen but just thinking about being his mate made me smile and my hear started beating fast ,

I walked back in as almost the sun was setting down . right when I was about to enter the washroom I saw a hot cup of coffee on the night stand beside my bed  with a white rose ; and a note  .

I ignored to note and threw it in the bin  I did not know that a new note every day would present  itself on my night stand at the same time with the flowers for another two weeks .

I finally decide to read it after two weeks of being stubborn

""I might  not be able to fix our past but I can sure make our future memorable please have dinner with me tonight .  ""

                                                       -WITH LOVE LUKE

I blushed maybe its not so bad to see where things head in the end I can always go back home after the week . Not giving him a chance might make me regret later . So I can be guilty for once but cant handle not doing something and regretting

I drank the hot coffee

A maid knocked on the door maam "will you be dining with prince tonight ? "she asked me .

"yes I will be having the dinner with you prince tonight  "

If he makes my heart happy then happy is what I will choose to be. But after I do what I have already decided  as his punishment and mine a well .