(Reader's pov)
I know you've got the best intentions~
Hinata being the greatest sunshine in my life..
Just trying to find the right words to say~
Me and hinata been friends since 7...
I promise, I've already learned my lesson~
He knows im living in a broken family well my mom and dad divorced when i was 13 and he always tried to cheer me up.
"(y/n)-chan!!" hinata called.
"hinata goodmorning.." i greeted him with a monotone voice.
"come on cheer up!! me and the team are going to nationals you know!!" he said trying to cheer me up.
But right now, I wanna be not okay~
"Why are you always doing this..?" i ask him coldy.
"oh come on!! dont be a tsun-tsun~" he teased.
I dint move a inch to his 'tease' and shrug it off and walked away.
I'm so tired, sitting here waiting~
"Hinata arent you have practice...?" i ask him.
"hm yeah!! i forgot!! byeee se yah later!!" he walked away.
If I hear one more "Just be patient"~
"you dont know how its like..." i muttered and walked away.
It's always gonna stay the same~
Next day...
So let me just give up~
My grandfather passed away,well i lived with my grandparents since my mom work in a different country and my dad have a different family now.
"(y/n)-chan im very sorry!!" hinata shouted.
"oh hinata your here..." i said.
"Sorry im late to the mourn!!" he apologized again.
"its okay i understand...hows game..?" i ask to lighten up the mood.
"oh we won over inarazaki!!!" he shouted.
"oh really...congrats..?" i said.
So let me just let go~
Hinata's phone ringed as he answered it.
"oh we have a practice im really sorry!!" hinata said.I was about to say something but he ran off already.
If this isn't good for me~
Its been weeks since my grandfather's death and hinata was always busy.Im trying to reach out...but hes busy.
Well, I don't wanna know~
Ived been trying to be better as possible but remembering hinata im trying to act normal for him...i dont want to burden him...
Let me just stop trying~
But what can i do..?
it hurts..
im human too...
Let me just stop fighting~
Im tired how teachers put me to guidance council im tired how grandma cries everynight...im tired...
I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright~
"(y/n)-chan sorry we have a match tomorrow i cant come visit your grandfathe.." he said with a apologetic smile.
"its okay.."
You don't know what it's like~
I know you just dont understand...since luck is always beside you..
You don't know what it's like~
You story was good...better..positive...
Can't stop these feet from sinking~
You never know how it feels
And it's starting to show on me~
My life just sunken to the point..
And it's starting to show on me~
Bottomless pit..
But just don't tell me what you see~
I guess...i better of dead..
I'm so over all this bad luck~
"Hinata goodluck with your game okay.." i said.
"Dont worry we will win over this nationals!!!" hinata jumped up and down.
I smiled at him.
"Goodluck..." he was suprised
Well i never smiled since the day my parents divorced.
Hearing one more "Keep your head up"~
"ok!!" he ran to their bus and waved at me.
I waved back.
Is it ever gonna change?~
I walked back to my class
Is it ever gonna change?~
When i walk home i saw my grandma with a cake and candles and stared at me.
So let me just let go~
"Happy birthday dear.." she said.
"y-you remember..." i said.
If this isn't good for me~
I smiled at my grandma and ate the cake with her.
Well, I don't wanna know~
I know my life is a badluck..
but im glad i still have grandma....and hinata..
Let me just stop trying~
My phone beeped and i saw a message from hinata..
Well im expecting he would say 'happy birthday' with randomn positive emojis...but i dint expect what i got.
Let me just stop fighting~
I was about to call him but he was the one who called.
"hinata-" he cut me off.
I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright~
I hear sobs of his teamates at the back.
"We lost.."
You don't know what it's like~
