↳ 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐊 ; 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤

𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 | r.m.

pairing: jaemin x renjun

genre: smut & angst(?)

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it's hard to accept, it is.

all of renjun's life is under control, yet here he is, hanging on to the one thing that shatters his perfect life.

jaemin.

jaemin's his ex. though they've separated for bad reasons, left one another with trust issues, cheating, and just had a toxic relationship overall— none could release their pent up frustration with someone else.

it's something that'd become a routine. let jaemin make a mess of you because no one can do you as he does.

now let's be honest, jaemin and renjun were indeed once in love, even though they were two puzzle pieces that never quite fit each other's voids.

despite that, renjun couldn't help but lean into jaemin's warmth.

and jaemin couldn't help but allow him to do so.

"woah renjun.. what happened to you?" donghyuck's eyes widen at renjun. before renjun could begin to explain, donghyuck answers himself.

(bye my mom always asks me things and before i can answer, she answers herself like ?$:&??&2&)

"don't tell me.. jaemin got jealous again??" renjun waddles on over to the empty spot next to donghyuck, and sighs.

renjun's neck was decorated with fresh violet hickeys, lips seemingly still bruised, and unable to even walk right. only one person could've done this. jaemin.

"yeah," renjun answers curtly, scrolling through his phone. "didn't taeyong hyung teach you NOT to get into toxic relationships?? you guys aren't even together! he has no right to get jealous!" donghyuck fumes, though he knows it's too late.

he couldn't be saved, too late for that. donghyuck knew this ever since renjun began his crush on jaemin.

ever since they dated.
ever since they broke up,
and ever since they started whatever this relationship was.

donghyuck sighs once more, "guess you don't need saving hm? you're part of who to blame as well." renjun looks into donghyuck's eyes.

he's right.

renjun wasn't in an abusive relationship where his partner was now his ex, yet still pestered him. renjun was in some sort of relationship(?) in which they hooked up, got jealous of others, but never had a label.

it was toxic indeed, but renjun couldn't find it in him to complain. he missed jaemin's heat, his touch, his scent, he missed it all and he would go back to it anytime.

it isn't as if renjun wanted to date jaemin anyways. though he admits that jaemin was special to him, he could only crave jaemin's body on his.
same goes for jaemin.

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renjun takes a seat on the rooftop, memory taking him back to that memorable night. memorable indeed, but renjun doesn't know if to think of that night as a fateful or wretched event.