A Lesson Or A Blessing.

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"I dealt with the problem, I just had no idea what the solution would do to me" ~FMG.

Previously on IELB.
Muneenah and Farouk are divorced, and somehow, just somehow, we'd seen her almost about to travel back to Nigeria, only to be seized by sediq...in the course of an escape, meeting with an accident!!, For this chapter, that's beside the point, Why did Farouk divorce her? How did his Family take it?, is he to be blamed?

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-------------- "You know, whenever I act as a pest to you, I just want to know what's in your mind, what you're thinking" she said calmly.

"I know it hasn't been normal since that day, but not only for you, for us also" her voice suddenly broke and she immediately blinked away the tears that formed in her eyes.

"Let's forget about that, I don't know really the reason behind your marriage with muneenah" She looked up to him.

"I don't know why suddenly you didn't marry that arshlee girl, you only brought a girl from nigeria who we don't even know about" she chuckled.

"Oh what am I even saying? We know nothing that goes on in your life, but you know what?" She continued

"This girl muneenah, there's something peculiar about her, I'm good at picking out someone good--"

"Even as I don't know her, I know she's good enough, I can see that, all you need to do is to keep her"

He got up from his seat and went over to her

He hugged her "insha Allah" was all he said but inwardly he was processing what she just said.

It wasn't that easy, oh mariya, it wasn't at all.

Neglect,

Redeem,

Escape.

Dubai,United Arab Emirates,
Emirates hill,
16th July, 2010 (10 days after the divorce)
F M G.
Farouk Muhammad Ghazaali.

A wise descriptive literary writer once penned down, Guilt is that suffocating feeling that clings unto one's chest, guilt is not being able to concentrate fully on the chore at hand without the mind trailing back to the events linked to that guilt, that feeling of self loath directed at one's own self knowing the deed has being done, the 'wrong' decision had being made despite, knowing what could've being the right one to make.

Another intelligent poet once had confessed the words, Guilt and Shame are brothers of each, one brother telling you you're not worth it, and the other brother reminding you that, you very well deserve it! Both brothers though, dig up that affair of the past for you and throw it right at your face, reminding you of your failures.

A life coach once emphasized how the feeling of guilt ought to be, he eloquently expressed, it makes you wish, wish you could've done better, wish you could've gone about things a different way, makes you think you can make it right next time, maybe? You don't know, that's guilt!

But at the very end line, one thing was clear though, that guilt, could as well be a friend, a booster, simply because it makes you want to be better, if only the resolve had being that easy!!

All those, had to be from the point of views of fluent, persuasive and well spoken people, but None, absolutely none, related directly to what he felt..