Doll - Bucky x Reader fanfic

Chapter 9 - Dates

Chapter 9

You wake up feeling tired already. You were tossing and turning seeing flashes of that woman all night. Bucky must've been in the shower, because you could hear it running. You got up to put your clothes on, since you never put them back on from last night. "Goodmorning Doll" Bucky says, stepping out of the bathroom with his towel at his v-line.

"Good morning James" you reply. "You were quite the sleeper last night. Almost gave me a black eye" he jokes. "Oh god. I'm so sorry. Just after the nigh-". Bucky cuts you off. "Doll, I'm kidding. You were just a bit restless". He pulls you into a tight hug. Here you go again. You felt too helpless and hated being treated like it, but at the same time, it made you feel safer. "Do you want to go out to breakfast?" Bucky asks. "Sure". You sniffle up the tears that were about to fall. "Give me 30 minutes".

- 45 minutes later -

"30 minutes my ass" Bucky chuckles. "Oh give me a break Barnes. You try getting ready walking on crutches" you joke. "How long do you have to wear that thing for anyways?" he asks. "Well luckily I'm a super soldier, so about a week and a half more" you say "Where are we going to eat?" you ask. "I was thinking this french place called Dantorels". "Ooh french. Sounds fancy" you say nudging him.

You and Bucky take one of Tony's 'work' cars to the restaurant. Really Tony just lets us drive them so he can use it as a tax write off since we're technically Stark and Shield employees.

Bucky parks the car in the underground garage and gets the door for you. As y'all are walking to the elevator Bucky points out that this is your first date together. "I thought us watching that movie was our first date?" you say. "That was a little more than a date" Bucky smirks at you. You blush remembering your first time with Bucky. Suddenly it dawns on you that it was the first time you could ever remember have sex with someone at all. What if that was your first time and you didn't even know it? Your smirk turns into a frown at the thought.

"What's wrong?" Bucky sees your dull expression. "Oh it's nothing". The elevator dings, quite literally you being saved by the bell. You try to push your worries down until later when you are alone.

"Hi, table for 2" you hear Bucky say, pulling you out of your faded zone. "Right this way" the hostess says. "Wow this place is beautiful". You expected just a small french cafe, but this place was gorgeous. There were crystal chandeliers and crown molding. The ceilings were at least 25 feet tall, and there was a beautiful granite fountain in the middle of the room that almost matched the height.

"If I knew we were going somewhere so fancy, I would've dressed nicer" you say. "Yea me too. I just saw it online and saw that the reviews were good. Didn't realize it was so posh". You and Bucky sit down at a plush corner booth with incredibly comfortable chairs. You sit in silence looking through the menu. "Wow this all looks amazing. I can't decide" you say. "Get whatever you want doll. I think I'm just gonna get a spinach and cheese croissant. How bout you"? "I think I'll get a chicken crepe and a mimosa". After the night and morning you've already had, you thought you deserved a little bit of alcohol.

The waiter comes and takes your order and leaves. "So, have you talked to Nat?" Bucky asks. "Well she told me to never speak to her again so yea. Plus there's nothing to talk about. But I don't really want to talk about it" you say. Bucky and you make small talk for a little bit until your food arrives.

"This is amazing" you say. You practically inhale your mimosa in a few gulps. "You nervous?" bucky asks. "No. Just really good mimosas" you say. You obviously lied. You were terribly nervous, but not because of the date, but because of your nightmares and now wondering if Bucky was your first.

You and Bucky continue getting to know each other while enjoying your breakfast. And you drive back home.

"Thank you for breakfast" you tell Bucky as you walk out the elevator. "Your welcome. I enjoyed spending time with you" he replied.

You went to your room to change into more casual clothes, and go hang out with Wanda. "Hey Wanda. Watchu doin?" you say coming into her room unannounced. "Hi Y/N. I was just texting Vis. He's gonna take me on a date tonight. Speaking of dates, I heard you and Bucky went on one. How'd it go?". "It was ok. He took me to a really nice restaurant, but I was having trouble making conversation. That's why I came to see you. I wanted to see if you could look in my head again. I'm kinda worried about something" you say. "Sure. What is it" Wanda replies. "Well it's just that... me and Bucky had sex... twice now, but while we were out, I realized that I dont remember my first time. I'm scared that Bucky might have been my first, but even not, I've never thought about that kind of thing, and want to know" you say. "Of course I'll help. I couldn't imagine what might be going through your head" she says.

Wanda turns off the lights and lays your head in your lap. Your mind goes fuzzy with lightning fast flashes of memories that you've seen in dreams already. Wanda probably knew more of your past than you did with how many times she's helped you. So far all that you had gotten with her help is that you grew up in California, you lived with your mom only, and you had a childhood best friend named Jules.

You tried communicating with Wanda, but you were so deep in your head, all you let out was a faint grunt. You felt as if you weren't in your own body. You'd gone deep in your memories before, but not like this. Time seemed to slow down, but also speed up. You were able to open your eyes a bit, and saw that Wanda was struggling, but your eyes closed again, and you felt heavy again.

After what seemed like forever, Wanda brought you back. The sun was already going down, meaning you were there for at least 5 hours. "Y/N. I'm sorry" Wanda looked at you disappointed. "I couldn't find any romantic history with anyone". Your eyes went wide and small tears began to form in your eyes. "Thank you Wanda" you said. You walked out of her room and trudged to yours. Tears dropped down your face as you sat on your bed. You liked Bucky, it's just that knowing he was most likely your first, without you knowing it, scared you. You would have to tell him at some point.

You laid in bed for a few hours, just thinking. You decided to go back to Wanda's room to do something to get it off your mind. "Hey" you say, knocking on the doorframe of her bedroom. "Hi Y/N. How are you feeling" she says. "I'm fine. I just want to get my mind out of it for a while. Wanna play some board games or something?" you ask. "Sure. I just got back from the movies with Vision. We saw this really cool scary movie. You should watch it" Wanda replies. "Sounds cool. Maybe I'll watch it later." you say.

Wanda and you spend the rest of the night playing tons of board games and laughing till your stomachs hurt. Eventually you could barely keep your eyes open, and fell asleep on her couch.