Doll - Bucky x Reader fanfic

Chapter 8 - Please

WARNINGS; Smut, Suicidal, Drug use/Abuse

Chapter 8

You didn't get out of bed that day. Bucky was hanging out with Steve in the city, and the rest of the team was gone.

Nat's words echoed in your head all day. "Never speak to me again". That's all you could think about. How badly you wanted to take the whole bottle of Xanax from the stash hidden in your bathroom. How badly you wanted to feel numb. Why in god's name did you think kissing your best friend was a good idea? Why couldn't you have just suppressed your feelings and been with Bucky? You had ruined everything for yourself.

"Ms. Y/L/N, would you like me to have the help prepare you some food? I sense your nutrition levels are low" said Jarvis. "No. I'm fine" you reply, hiding under your thin blanket. You wished you could curl up on the side of the road and die.

Your next couple of days in the lab repeat the same as this, teams gone and you coming so close to taking your pills. Bucky came to visit you a little bit, but you told him you wanted some space. Finally Banner took the IV out your arm and you could sleep in your own comfy bed.

"Hey Y/N. How are you feeling"? Bucky was leaning on your bedroom door frame. "I'm ok" you say. Bucky walks over to your bed and gives you a warm hug. He starts trailing kisses from your neck down to your collarbone. You moan at the soft touch of his lips on your skin. You longed for something to provide you even a small bit of happiness these past few days and Bucky gave you exactly that.

He lifted the bottom of your shirt slightly and planted wet kisses near your belly button. He continued to completely remove your shirt and suck on the soft skin on your nipples. You buck your hips against his abdomen to feel some friction. Bucky sensed your need for him and started kissing your thighs, leaving sure marks for tomorrow. He pulled off your cotton panties and put your left leg over his shoulder. James lowered his head and started licking slowly between your wet folds. You arched your back to his gentle touch.

He began rubbing his flesh hand on your clit causing you to bite your lip, almost drawing blood. Bucky becomes rougher and quicker with the movements of his tough and you let out a loud moan sending shivers down your spine. "Bucky" you moan. "Do you feel good doll?" he says. "Mhm". Your eyes roll further back when bucky starts rubbing fast circles around your clit. A familiar knot began to form in your stomach as you came close to your orgasm. You began to squirm under his touch. "Cum for me babygirl". And with the sound of his voice, you came all over his hand.

Bucky brang slow and wet kisses back up your stomach, to your neck, and then your lips. You could taste yourself on his mouth. You wanted more. You could feel Bucky's boner through his boxers. "Fuck me Bucky" you moan in his ear. "You want that Doll?" he says teasing you. "Yes sergeant". Bucky slides his boxers down, letting his cock spring free. He lines himself up with you, and slides in slowly. He continues going at a slow pace, then begins picking up speed, bucking his hips harder into you with each thrust. With each rock, he hits your g-spot, causing your eyes to roll to the back of your head. You fall silent with your mouth open while you arch our back more and more. Bucky notices your brief silence. "Sorry doll. Am I hurting you?" he asks. "No no. Keep going" you whimper. Bucky continues to pick up speed again as you feel your orgasm coming close. "I'm gonna cum" you say, squeezing your eyes shut. "Me too baby. Look at me. I want to watch you as you cum" he says. You force your eyes open to look at him. Bucky's movements become sloppy as he's close to reaching his high also. With a couple more thrusts, you came. Bucky came a few moments after you as he rode out your highs.

"That was amazing" you say as Bucky lays down next to you. "You were amazing" he says. You cuddle up next to him, and you both fall asleep.

- 2:30 am -

"нет! пожалуйста, не делай этого!" you hear a woman yell. You look down. It's the same woman from your last nightmare. You hear yourself speak, but you don't understand the words coming out of your mouth. "Hail HYDRA" you say.

You shoot up in bed, out of breath and crying. "What's wrong?" Bucky says groggily. "I-I had another nightmare. This woman keeps appearing in them and I don't know who she is". You begin to panic and hyperventilate. "Y/N it's ok". Bucky hugs you. "I'll get you some water" he says.

The woman's words repeat in your head even though you can't understand them. "нет! пожалуйста, не делай этого!". What did that even mean. It was obviously russian.

"Here you go". Bucky walks back into the room handing you a glass of water. "Bucky" you say. "Yes Doll"? "You speak russian right?" you ask. He nods. "The woman in my dream. She said something to me in russian and i thought maybe you could translate it". "Of course. What'd she say"? You repeat the words to Bucky. "She was pleading with you. I don't know what for but she told you not to do something" he says. Now you had wished you hadn't asked. The lack of information would keep you up all night overthinking. "Are you feeling better? We should go back to sleep" Bucky says. "Ok".