Mary's

5

It’s been a month and two weeks since he started texting me. I am used to our routine by now which scared me a bit. We casually hold hands and I’m fine with it. Awkward moments sometimes occur but I guess that can’t be helped.
We text and call each other more often, like a real couple…but we aren’t. Kaye and Rose have been teasing us about our relationship but I just shrug it off.
“Bye guys I’ll see you tomorrow.” Kaye left with her boyfriend, as usual. Rose stands beside me with her hand on my shoulder. “So tell me. When are you going to get yourself a man?” I asked. Rose’s face contorted as if she didn’t understand what I was talking about. I waited for her reply but then she just chuckled. “Are you sure it’s a man that I want?” Her face got closer to mine. It made me speechless and frozen. Then her playful smirk came to view. “I don’t want a man but I want men.” She said before waving goodbye. I was about to call her when my bag was pulled. Hands were wrapped to my shoulders to keep me from losing my balance.

“Is she straight?” Kurt’s voice sounded annoyed. I slapped his chest when I faced him. “Of course she is. That’s just her so don’t judge.” Kurt looked amused but said nothing nonetheless.

He got my bag and held my hand. “Let’s eat shall we? Today’s on me.”

We entered to the nearest fast food then ordered our food. The line was too long for my liking so I told Kurt that he should wait instead and I’ll find a spot for us. I prefer staying outside in a corner, fortunately I found the perfect spot.

He came so we started eating. I stared at him and I noticed he was looking at his watch every five seconds. He looked so nervous about something. “Hey, is something wrong?” I asked but he didn’t hear me. Something really was bothering him. I shook his hand a bit and he looked so…confused? “C-can I? Can I court you?”

“W-what?” He grabbed my hand and squeezed it desperately. “I really, really like you. Heck I even want you to be my girlfriend right now but I know it will shock you.” He chuckles. I really hate that deep but cute chuckle of his.
My emotions were all over the place. I felt tingly, nervous, excited, afraid, and…happy? Again, I’ve never felt like this before. No man has ever treated me the way he has. He is so caring and gentle. I admit, he has been the one in my dreams every night. Lately all I have been thinking about is Kurt but I won’t tell him that.

“Well?” I look down to my lap. Am I ready? What if he will end up hurting me? But I truly am happy when I’m with him. Ugh forget it, it’s now or never. “Why court when I can be your girlfriend?” I bit my lip lower lip. I can’t suppress my smile. The whole thing is so overwhelming. I think my heart will burst open.

I can see that Kurt was taken aback at my initiative but my point is, why spend time courting me when I’ll just agree on being his girlfriend in the end. It’s not worth wasting that time, we could just make more memories together.

“R-really?” He blinked twice. Kurt’s expression looked so bright, so happy. I think I’m going to melt any minute now. Happiness really can’t be bought.
“Umm so what should I call you? Babe? Baby? Darling?” He moved his sit beside me. Suddenly it feels so awkward having him close now that we are together. I unconsciously leaned away from him and it didn’t go unnoticed by him.

“Baby! Don’t be shy now!” He teased. It’s really cheesy and yet it still made me laugh. I’m glad he knows how to loosen my nerves. I smack his chest to stop him from looking at me like a pervert. His expression looked so weird that if a baby sees him, the baby will surely cry. “But you are my baby yet you are not crying.”

“What?” My eyes widened at what he just said. He snorted, “You said your thoughts out loud.” Holy freak! I did? Ugh so embarrassing, however, so what if he heard my thoughts about him. He is my boyfriend after all. “I know.” I lied. He obviously doubted it though he said “Sure” with amusement.

“Let’s go.” He carried my bag and I made no move to hold his hand or anything. Kurt took my hand and intertwined it instead. I looked away blushing.

“Come on now don’t be shy. It’s not like we haven’t held hands before. Right... baby?” I clamp his mouth to shut him up, he did but he licked my palm. I jerked my hand in disgust. He laughed like a hyena, he is. Now I’m starting to doubt if I made the right decision a few moments ago. I wiped his saliva om his shirt. He took my hand and wiped it carefully, with his shirt. Disgusting!
We walked hand in hand, no one spoke. The silence wasn't awkward or anything unpleasant. It was the actual opposite though and I was fine with it. Nothing but us holding hands, walking, and nothing in between. I could get used to this routine. I’m glad that I am doing these things with Kurt.

I have my doubts for sure though at least I am not a coward to try and work things out with him. I can’t wake up one day crying just because I was wondering what if I didn’t do it. Today and for the next moments with Kurt, I will trust him.
I lightly squeeze his hand in mine. We locked gazes. I wish I could stop the time so we could stay like this for a while. His eyes look dark but held so much happiness, I’m pretty sure that so do I. Both of us looked down at the same time. I hope we really last, I am contented in what we have now. I wonder if our feelings are mutual.