The Ghost Of Us (HWGA sequel)

I'm fine.

I walk into school Monday morning, I felt so out of place and weird. This weekend has been more than eventful, and I didn't want to face school. Sam, my friends... it all made me feel sick. A weekend was not enough to cope with everything. I still felt like shit since that night. I pull my backpack up onto my shoulders and start walking to my locker.

"Jo," I hear and turn to see Austin. "Hey, you showed up today."
"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I ask and he follows me to my locker.
"I don't know... this weekend and all. I didn't think you'd wanna see Sam," he says and I sigh.
"I'm not gonna hide for however long because of this," I mumble. "We're on a break. What else am I supposed to do?"
"I know... I know," he nods. "I just hope you're doing good," he puts a hand on my shoulder stopping me. I look at him.
"I am Austin," I say. "Seriously. I'll be okay," I tell him.
"If he does anything, don't hesitate to tell me, because I will cut his dick off," he says and I laugh.
"You're gonna be the first to hear if he does anything," I say and he nods. We walk the rest of the way to my locker.
"Speak of the devil," I hear Austin say and I turn to where he was looking, and I see Sam, he was standing next to Caleb and Kyle with a frown etched on his lips. He looked tired and messy. Why was he tired? Is he okay?
Ugh... who cares?
I turn back to my locker and shake off the feeling. I open my locker and grab my books. I wanted to get to class as fast as I can.
"Hey bud," I hear and shut my locker and I see Andrew.
"Hi," I said and his smile drops.
"You okay?" He asks.
"I'm great. I'm gonna go to class," I said.
"The bell hasn't even gone off?" Austin says.
"I have an assignment to hand in," I shrug. "I was supposed to hand it in, Friday. But I didn't," I add. "See you guys at lunch?"
"We have a spare together," Andrew says.
"Yeah, sure," I nod and walk off, almost run off to get to my class and pass Sam.
I knew I shouldn't try to avoid him, but I don't want to talk to him. I don't even want to look at him. It makes me sad, and I hate being sad.
I hated it, and lately... I have been the most depressing bitch ever.

~

The bell rings and people al scatter to their classes and I watch as I lean against my locker. My eyes only on one person. Sam. He shuts his locker and waits for people to walk past him. He scans the hall, and then his eyes land on me. He stares at me for a second with wide eyes. He looked like he wanted to walk over and say something. Then he gets nudged and I look next to him, to see Tyler. I immediately cringe and think of this weekend.
I look away from him and pull out my phone, it was my spare. So I didn't need to go to class.

"Hey," I hear and look up to see Andrew.
"Hey," I replied putting my phone away, even though I wasn't looking at it. Just distracting myself. I glance over to Sam's locker and he was walking away now.
"Library or bleachers?" He asks.
"Bleachers, I need air," I remark and he nods and starts walking. I follow him toward the school back doors.
"So, you good?" He asks. "How's the day been?" He asks.
"Fine, I guess," I reply.
"And... Sam?" He asks.
"What about him?" I ask. "We're on a break remember."
"Yeah, I didn't forget," he nods. "But... what's going on?"
"Nothing really," I mumble and he sits down and I sit next to him. "I'm kind of avoiding him I guess. But he also hasn't tried to talk to me or anything," I add. It was only a little upsetting that he hasn't tried to talk to me. But... I told him we were on a break, so what do I expect?
"Maybe because you're avoiding him?" He says.
"Shut up," I said and he laughs. "Let's talk about something else. Who cares about me and Sam..." I said trying to change the subject.
"Yeah, that's fine. I'm just asking if you're okay," he says.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Better than fine," I say and he nods.
"Cool... I hope you know I'm gonna ask you that later, and you better not lie," he says and I roll my eyes.
"Whatever," I say.
"So, what do you want for Christmas?" He asks.
"Dude, it's early October. Why are you thinking that far ahead?" I ask. "You should be thinking... what are our matching Halloween outfits gonna be?" I add.
"You want to go matching!?" He asks. "I'm pleasantly surprised by that."
"It just came to me," I shrug. "Plus... I have nothing better to do," I add.
"Nothing better to do? Don't make it sound so miserable," he laughs. "Besides that, what should we go as? Dumb and Dumber?" He asks and leans back against the bleachers.
"Not a bad idea," I nod. "Anyway," I look at him. "Do you think I should dye my hair?" I ask. "Like purple!?" I add and he looks at me for a minute silently.
"Bud, I think you're going through a mental breakdown," he says and I shake my head.
"No, I'm not," I said. "I've been thinking about it a lot recently," I said, which wasn't exactly true, it recently came to me. But now that I really think about it, it's a good idea.
"Yes, you are," he remarks. "You're going through shit with your boyfriend, and being constantly sleep deprived, does not help the situation," he tells me. "So, I recommend you really think about it."
"Who cares, all I'm asking is.. do you think it would look good?" I ask.
"Yeah," he nods. "I think you can pull off anything," he mumbles and I look at him and he looks toward the field. "Not in a weird way," he adds running a hand through his hair.
"Would you do it with me?" I laugh at my suggestion.
"What kind of purple?" He asks. "I don't know if I could pull it off."
"I think you could," I nod. "Like a lavender purple," I say.
"I don't know," he says. "I'm not the hair dying type," he adds.
"Yeah... well should I do it?" I ask.
  "If you want to actually do it, and you're not having a mental break down yeah," he nods.
"I'm not having a mental break down," I say again.
"If you say so," he shrugs and looks at me. "I think you could pull it off."
"Well... we are gonna have a slumber party... so wanna do it!?" I ask.
"Why not," he nods. "But if you hate it, you can't be mad at me."
"If you do it badly I can," I laugh.
"I won't do bad!" He says. "I don't do anything badly."
"Okay Mr. cocky," I shake my head. "I almost forgot that you're a jack of all trades," I add.
"How could you forget?" He asks. "That's my best quality Jo."
"Your best quality is you being good at everything," I restate and he nods. "Why are we friends again?"
"Because, I'm charming," he smiles.
"Not as charming as you think bud," I reply and he waves me off.
"I think you're jealous."
"You're right... you figured me out," I say dramatically. "What can I say!? I'm extremely jealous of you Andrew!" I sigh.
"You don't have to be," he shakes his head. "Just cause I'm good at everything, doesn't mean you're useless completely," he replies and I laugh.
"Useless... completely," I repeat and he laughs.
"Only somewhat," he nods.
"Wow," I say. "I thought I was completely useless. I'm glad you reassured me that I'm not," I lean back on the bleachers.
"You're welcome," he says. "Apart of my many talents... I'm nice too," he remarks.
"Yeah... clearly. You're like, the nicest person ever," I say.
  "Thanks for realizing all my potential... finally Jo," he shakes his head. "I was really wondering why we're friends if you could barely see my true colours," he says dramatically and I laugh.
  "I hate you," I said and he laughs with me.
  "No you don't," he says. "You love me."

~

  "So can someone please explain to me what happened with Sam and Jo?" Caleb asks confused once he sits down with us on the bleachers at lunch. Sam wasn't here... yet. I don't even know if he'd show up, I kind of hoped not... but I also hoped he would.
  "Sam's a nasty bitch," Austin says.
  "That doesn't really give me much information," Caleb rolls his eyes and looks at me. "What happened!?" He asks.
  "We got into a fight," I mumble. "We're taking a break."
  "Dude... he's not doing good," Kyle adds. "He looks miserable."
  "It's his fault," I say.
  "What was the fight?" Caleb asks.
  "I told you, Sam was being a dick face, and Jo doesn't deserve that," Austin adds in again.
  "It was just something. I don't really want to talk about it. You can ask him," I mumble.
Thinking about that night made me literally sick. Talking about it, is only worse.
  "But you guys are the power couple of this school!!" Caleb remarks. "You cannot break up."
  "It's just a break," I shrug. "I need some time alone. I think he does too," I say.
  "This cannot be the reason our group falls apart!" Caleb adds dramatically.
  "Caleb calm down," I say.
  "Yeah... Jo's going through something. Don't make it about you," Austin puts his arm around me. "How are you?"
  "I'm good Austin, you don't have to worry," I say.
  "I can kill him... if you want," he whispers to me and I laugh.
  "No... that's okay. Thanks for the offer though," I mumble. "Can we change the subject though? I think the reason for a break is to get a break from him."
  "Right," Austin nods.
  "Let's list all the things we love about Keanu Reeves," Andrew says and I laugh.
  "Dude... you won't hear the end of it," I retort.
  "Yeah, that's torture to us all," Austin says.
  "That's not torture at all Austin.... that's like listening to a great song on repeat because it's Keanu Reeves," I state and Andrew laughs. "You think I'm joking... but I'm not."
  "No ones surprised," Austin says. "You need help."
  "Only if it's from John Wick giving me his DICK!!" I exclaim. "Ooh!" I look at Andrew.
  "That was good," he nods and laughs. Austin shakes his head at me.
  "My mom has a really good therapist if you wanna get in contact," Austin says.
  "I'm fine," I shake my head. "I have Andrew to therapize me."
  "I don't think therapize is a word," Andrew remarks.
  "See.. already fixing me," I point out and I look at the field.
I was all happy, bubbly and laughing. But... really that's not at all how I was feeling inside. I felt like everything was falling apart and I hate it. I hate it so bad.

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A/N

Hi guys!!
It's been so long I know! I know! I suck! But I have been sooooo busy! I'm sorry it took me MONTHS to finally update. But here it is and I really hope you enjoy it! I'll be trying to update more and sooner!
Enjoy! Xx.

-Jana❤️