A/n: This story contains discussion of mild depression and suicide. Read at your own risk. This will have 18+ part.
On a lighter note,I don't really differentiate Atsumu and Sakusa as top or bottom. I consider them as a switch. So yeah,if you don't like it comment down below,I will right another story for the alternative 😇.
Atsumu's POV
My mind is a very bad place. I cannot let myself wander in that place. It's suffocating and toxic. I am very insecure about myself and my relationship with Sakusa. Today is one of that day. Sakusa was busy with some work and ignored me for a bit. But this led to overthinking and finally came down to me being insecure. Sakusa is at work and I am currently in our bedroom clutching my head and overthinking.
Am I good enough for Omi?
Is he enjoying himself in this relationship?
Or is he just playing along?
Do my teammates like me or are they speaking about me behind my back?
What if I play very badly in the next match and everyone is disappointed in me?
What if Samu and Omi hate me?
What's wrong with me?
Oh no that's a wrong door don't open that. My thoughts were filled with these. I thought hard about these and somehow came to the conclusion that Omi must want to break up with me cause I am ugly and I don't deserve him. I know this is bad and I have taken therapy for this for awhile but they keep coming. I am so useless. I headed to my room. I skipped lunch and dinner and just laid there on the bed sobbing and thinking how much it will hurt when Omi will break up with me. All of which came down that I will probably kill myself.
It was around 11:00 when the door to my room opened and I heard Omi enter. He came up to me and stroked my head gently. I sat up and hugged him tightly. I cried telling him,"Omi I don't want to break up with you. I will be good I promise." He lifted my face up to look at him and said,"Who said I am breaking up with you? I ain't leaving you until you tell me to." My sobs stopped and I said,"Really? You don't hate me?" He smiled saying," No I love you very much. But I am mad that you skipped lunch though." I nodded understanding and he held my hand and took me to the kitchen to eat.
*Warning 18+ part starts. Skip if you want*
After dinner,he carried me to his bedroom and made me sit on his bed. I looked at him curiously as he changed into his PJ's and came up to me. He leaned in and kissed my lips pationately. I responded with equal force. I snaked my hands around his neck and hoisted myself up. He gently picked me up and laid me down on the bed. I interlocked my hands in his curly hair that I love. He continued kissing me. His lips felt so soft and caring. He added his tongue and reached out to every corner of my mouth. He broke out from the kiss with a single string of saliva attaching us to each other. He looked at me adorably and then pulled off both our t-shirts. He attacked my neck and left deep red hickeys all the way along.
Once he found my sweet spot,he nibbled, sucked and bit it till he was satisfied with the amount of moans he got out from me. Meanwhile, he stroked my nipples until they turned bright pink.I caressed his broad chest and toned abs. Each time I touched him,he groaned in pleasure. His pants were bulging out and so were mine. He slipped off my pants along with my boxer and I tilted my head sideways to hide my insecurity and embarassment. He said," You are beautiful. I love you. Don't turn away please" Hearing him request that,I looked at his face and he smiled.
He touched my manhood and gave it a few strokes. I moaned at how good it felt when he touched me. He put my dick in his mouth and started bobbing his head up and down while swirling his tongue around it. I threw my head back and arched my back to give him a better access. He suddenly pulled out and I whined. He said," Wait baby." He pulled off his own pants and extended his fingers to my mouth. I licked them and covered it in my saliva. We generally use lube but it is my room. He inserted his finger in my butthole and I squirmed at the intrusion. He started pumping in and out. Then he added two more fingers eventually and made scissor motion to stretch it out. At some point,he hit my prostate and I shrieked. He jabbed at it for a few times before pulling out. I almost whined again at the loss of touch.
He gently caressed my thigh and hoisted them on his shoulder as he positioned himself at my entrance. I could see everything. His blushed face,his sweat mixed with a sweet cologne that he wears. He gently entered me and waited for my signal. I nodded and he started thrusting. After a few thrusts, he found my prostate again. I cried out when he hit it again,"Yes...ah....baby...Omi right there....ah...mmh..faster please." He nodded and slammed his dick ruthlessly, hitting my prostate every freaking time. Without any warning,I came all over my chest. Ribbons of white painted my chest and I was in a state of euphoria. Omi thrusted a few more times and then filled me with his cum. The hot liquid flowed in and gave me a beautiful sense of pleasure. He pulled out and cleaned me up and himself too.
*End of lemon*
He plopped himself beside me and brought me in a hug. He said,"If you ever feel insecure,call me and talk to me. I won't mind. But never assume things ok?" I nodded understanding and kissed him on his lips. I said smiling," Omi this is the first time you took initiative.🤭 I am really happy you know." He just huffed and said,"Don't get used to it. I just wanted to make up to you for ignoring you." I laughed and said," But when I licked your fingers,you looked really turned on and ready to do anything." He growled and said,"That was my fault for not bringing the lube. We will never talk about that ever again ok." I laughed and agreed to my clean freak boyfriend.❤️
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