Boarding school romance

Its ok

Jacks mom and him went into his dorm and she told him the news. She walked out crying and told me to go in. "Jack". I walked in and he was sitting on the end of his bed with his face in his hands. I sat down next to him and hugged him tight. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and cried onto my shoulder. "Let it all out" I said as I ran my hand through his hair. He continued crying into my shoulder. I stopped hugging him and held his face in my hands. I wiped his tears and kissed his forehead. He laid in my lap and I held him. "I don't want to be in here" he said all the sudden. "Where do you want to go?" I asked. "Our cave" he said. I helped him get up and we started walking to the woods. We got to the cave and crawled in. "Do you want to talk about it?" I asked. "I don't know, it's just weird thinking that he's gone, like I'll never see him again". "Yea I know, but he'll always with you in your heart" I said. "Yea he will. And I'm scared because I don't want to turn to drugs again but I can't resist it. I don't want to hurt you Becca". "Your not going to hurt me ok Jack" I said. "But I will and then you'll hate me forever" he said as a tear fell down his cheek. "How do you know you'll hurt me?" I asked. "It happens every time something bad happens. My bipolar depression kicks in and I just act out. I don't want to act out Becca" he said as he started sobbing. I let him fall forward into my chest and I held him. "I promise you won't hurt me, I understand and I will be here for you" I said as I rubbed his back. He came up and started kissing me. He kissed my neck and took my shirt off. I kinda just went along with it and took his off to. We both still had our uniforms on. He began to put his hand up my skirt but I stopped him. "Jack maybe we shouldn't" "c'mon let's have sex Becca please I need it". "You don't need it you want it. And no it's not the right time" I said. "Your so fucking lame" he said as he buttoned up his shirt. He got out of the cave and started walking away. "What the fuck Jack get back here". I let him have his space because I knew he was having an bipolar episode. But I tried calling him and he was ignoring me.

I let him be alone for 2 days and I couldn't stop worrying about him. He didn't show up to any classes. I finally decided to go to his dorm. I had a spare key and I opened his door. He was smoking a blunt. I ran over to him. "Jack what the hell". I grabbed the blunt and broke it in half. I saw a bottle of pills and knew they were drugs. I sat next to him. "I-I'm so sorry Becca. I'm just so lost, I feel empty inside, but I have you and I just keep fucking up" he said.  "We can get through this together, you don't need pills,sex, or weed. Just talk to me". "I know. I'm really trying, I am Becca" he said. "I know I bet you are but you need to try harder. You need to set goals for yourself". "You know, your to nice to me, I'm a  shitty person" he said. "No your not, your the nicest guy I've ever met im not joking" I said. "Whatever you say" he said and laid down on me. He fell asleep and I whispered "everything's going to be ok, I promise".

His room was trashed and smelt of weed. It looked like he had an episode and threw a bunch of things around. I laid him down gently and covered him up. I lit a strong candle and started cleaning up. I flushed all his weed and pills. Did his laundry. Picked up his room. It took me about an hour and a half but I got it done. He was still sleeping so I guessed he hadn't gotten a lot of sleep the past couple nights. I felt bad for him. He lost one of his best friends.

He woke up and noticed his room. "Did you do this?" He asked. "Yea, it's the least I could do I was just trying to help" "thank you so much I really appreciate it". "It's no problem" I said. "You stink go get in the shower" I said pointing to the bathroom. He stood up and fell. "Oh shit" I said as I ran over and helped him up. "I think it's the pills, I'm sorry" he said. I helped him walk to the bathroom. "How should we do this?" I asked. "I'm not having you bath me, I'm not a elder so just get in with me". I didn't want him to see me fully naked again, I mean we've showered together already but that was a one time thing. I want to take it slow with him but I have no choice so I guess I'm showering with him again. I took his clothes off for him and struggled to take mine off because I had to hold onto him so that he didn't fall. We got into the shower and he tried kissing me. "Your to weak Jack, and we are in here to shower not kiss" I said putting soap in my hand while still holding him. "Aww your no fun" "well it's kinda hard to kiss you anyway when I'm trying to get you to not fall" I said as I started running the shampoo through his hair. "Mmm your nails feel good on my scalp" he said and closed his eyes. I didn't really think about washing his body. He didn't have a loofa but he had a rag. I started washing his body and then started washing his you know what. "Mmm that feels good" he said leaning his back back. "Shut up, I'm not doing this for my enjoyment, I'm doing this because you stink and can't stand up" I said. I moved on and finished washing his body. I rinsed him off and got him out of the shower. I dried him off and wrapped the towel around him. I changed him into some comfy clothes. I laid him on the bed and got him water. He had super dark eye bags, which actually made him more attractive. I wanted to just crawl on top of him and kiss him but I couldn't. "Could you sleep here with me?" "Yea sure" I said and cuddled up next to him. He couldn't scratch my back this time so I scratched his. I heard him snoring and knew he fell asleep.