Boarding school romance

Just friends

I waited the 2 weeks and I couldn't stop worrying about him. He didn't show up to school at all. I couldn't stop thinking about what he was doing. But today was the day I was going to go to his dorm. I decided if he started getting better that we should remain friends. I just can't take all of this right now and I don't know if he's good for him. I really like him and I know he can't help what he's going through. But I can't emotionally stay in the relationship. Ill obviously help him but not date him for right now. I mean he did brake up with me.

I got to his dorm and knocked. "Who is it" he yelled. "Becca" I said. He opened the door and stood there. "Where the fuck have you been, I thought you said you'd be here for me. But no you just disappeared" he said and turned around and sat at his desk. "You broke up with me" I said looking down. "No I didn't why would I do that?" He said looking over at me confused. "Yea you did, as a matter of a fact you pushed me and then told me to fuck off". He didn't even remember. He put his face in his hands and said "omg I'm so stupid. I'm so so sorry". "Um it's fine I guess" I said. "I'm so embarrassed, why would I do that. I always fuck everything up" he said in a shaky voice. I walk over to him and hugged him. "You don't fuck everything up. You can't help or control it" I said And I took his arms off around me. As I did I noticed he had been cutting himself. "Omg Jack" "I-I don't really know what happened. I just couldn't take the pain anymore" he said as he hid his arms behind him."you could of called me or your mom, you know that right?" I said looking into his eyes. "Yea I know but I feel Like you guys hate me" he said looking down. "We don't hate you. We love you with all of our heart and we care about you a lot" I said. He leaned in to kiss me and I wasn't going to kiss him back but I did. I pulled away and said "About that, I think we should take a break from our relationship. I think we should be friends, I can help you with whatever but no relationship things" I said. "Oh okay. If that's what you want" he said. He was high I could tell.

I looked around his room, there were dirty clothes everywhere. Food left out. It stunk in there. And then I saw coke. There was 3 lines on a tray and one was already sniffed up. I simply didn't even say anything and went over to it and dusted it all off. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING BECCA" he yelled. I looked over at him and smiled. I took his pills and threw them in the trash. "Becca c'mon I payed a lot for those" he said running over to me and trying to pick them up. " I don't care. Look what their doing to you" I said as he looked around. "Your right I guess". "Yea I know. And get the shower you stink like shit" "I don't want to" he said. "At least wash your Body. We are getting you out of your room and getting you fresh air after you shower" I said. "Omg your so annoying fine". He got in the shower and I picked up his room a bit. I also lit an incense because it stunk really bad in his room. He got out of the shower and walked out naked. "Omg Jack ur so annoying I swear" I said as I turned around. He laughed and I heard him open his dresser drawer. "Are you changed yet?" I asked. "I don't know am I" he said as he came up from behind me and kissed my neck. I pushed him off and said "we aren't together anymore, now come on we're going outside". "Ughhh" he said as I dragged him out of his room. We walked around for a bit and then sat by the pond. "I don't feel to good" he said and the threw up in the lake. "I bet billy bob will love all that puke" I said laughing. "Shut up" he said laughing and drinking some sprite.

He got back to his room and it was around 9. "Becca" "yea" I asked. "can you spend the night, I sleep better when your here" he said. "Yea sure" I said and got into bed. He fell asleep right away. Which was good because it looked like he hadn't been sleeping a lot.

I woke up and he was turned on his side looking at me. He must of taken his shirt off in the middle of the night because he was shirtless. Great now I have to look at his abs. "What?" I said because he was looking at me. He got on top of me and and got close to my face. "Nothing your just cute when you sleep" he said and kissed me. I pushed him off and said "we aren't together you can't just kiss me" "I don't like that answer though. How about we are together" he said laying on his back. "No, I can't emotionally be in a relationship, especially not with you like this" I said and went to get out of the bed. He grabbed me and Pined me down on the bed and got on top of me. " but I'm getting better Becca I can feel it. I woke up and I didn't feel the dark cloud. That means I'm getting better" he said as his chain dangled in my face. He leaned in slowly and so did I.

"So does this mean we are back together" he said. "I don't know" I said. "And I'm so sorry for everything I did, I honestly don't remember what I did but I know it was bad and I'm sorry" he said getting off me. "Yea it really hurt me. But you also can't do anything about it. It's almost like you were a different person" "yea that's honestly what it feels like. It feels like I'm trapped in a gloomy world but I change" he said. "That sounds scary" "it is. That's why I get so depressed" he said looking over. "I'm sorry" I said. "I should probably get back to my dorm, I have homework to do" I said. "Can you please stay. You don't have to but I just feel safe and good when your here". "Yea that's fine I'll just run by my dorm and get some stuff" I said.

I got to my dorm and packed all my stuff cause I figured he would want me to stay again.