A Collection of my Inner Thoughts and Most Personal Feelings

14

I am Kristina

I am unable to fall asleep

I am late nights staring at my ceiling

I am depression and anxiety medications

I am shaking so bad I can barely write this poem

I am damaged

I am dark like the basement I was scared of as a child

I am too young for this kind of pain

I am Kristina

I am the oldest sibling so I can handle this

I am funeral after funeral

I am saving my family from falling apart with chewed up bubble gum

I am tired

I am Kristina

I am a 10-day bruise

I am large coffee twice a day

I am broken

I am Kristina

I am princesses and fairy tales

I am a 45-minute shower

I am 4 am youtube videos

I am panic attack after panic attack

I am trying to be the best me I can

I am not perfect

I am staying after class to cry to my teacher since he actually listens

I am not able to do that with my step-father

I am Kristina

I am Kristina

I am a pity in your face

I am 20 pounds lost to being so depressed I have no appetite

I am "why do you dwell on the past"

I am a 2-day couch junkie

I am why are you still curious

I am Kristina

I am don't tell her until she thinks you are here to stay

I am alone

I am brittle bones

I am sorry

I am sorry for myself

I am broken bone after broken bone

I am no noticeable scars

I am not doing this again

I am Kristina

I am miserable

I am a bastard

I am trying to hold on

I am a poor kid called to the counselor's office for telling someone my feelings

I am bitter

I am Kristina

I am never going to be loved

I am sorry he left us

I am trying to forgive myself

I am trying to stop reliving those moments

I am Kristina

I am trying

I am dehydrated

I am having a mental breakdown

I am lost

I am Kristina

I am trying to overlook all the bad that has been done to me

I am forgive and forget

I am praying to go back

I am needing change

I am choking on my tears

I am going to do this all again tomorrow

I am finally asleep.