Karma
April 2
1:15 pm
"I know they was lost without you at work today" bri told me as we sat on the chair while jr and Hendrix played
"Girl I couldn't deal. I had to stay home today. I been pushing myself all week but I just was so sick and exhausted this morning"
"You need to slow down. You got too much going on to say that you pregnant. And you EARLY too"
"I know... you sounding like Benji now"
"I'm surprised his ass ain stay home witchu"
"I had to make him go to work. He was... he said he was gonna get off early though cause he ain wanted to leave me here feeling like this by myself "
"Aweeeee"
I rolled my eyes and laughed "ion trust that lovey dovey shit right now"
"Why not? Y'all always be lovey dovey on each other"
"Yeah but I peeped he lowkey think I'm sneaking around"
Bri frowned "huh?"
"Cause. Every since I wouldn't answer him about why I go see the wedding planner so much, he been asking a lot of questions and shit. Then I saw him going through my phone"
"Well I mean it ain like you shit to hide so let him look"
"I mean.."
"What?" She looked at me "you sneaking Forreal?"
"No! I just go to a therapist. Just don't say nothing about it to nobody"
"A therapist? What's going on?"
I shrugged and sighed, looking at Hendrix "lately it's been feeling like so much is going on and to keep myself from having an anxiety attack or something, I just felt like that's was what's best for me"
"And you ashamed of telling somebody about that?"
"I just don't want nobody to think I'm crazy or anything. Plus I don't want Benji to think nothing crazy either"
"Why would he Kay?"
"Cause. As hard as Benji seems, really and truly the boy is as soft as a pillow when it comes to me. And when he feels like I'm acting different or anything out of the ordinary happens he feel like I maybe getting tired of him and I'm not"
"Awe. He just like a little reassurance. Kay it's nothing at all wrong with going to get help if you think you need it and I think you should really sit down and tell him, talk to him about it because we all know he in love witchu and as long as you explain why he'll understand"
" 'mon" Hendrix told jr as he ran off to the kitchen and my eyes followed him until they both disappeared
"What y'all doing?!"
"Being bad as usual!" Bri told me. I heard the sound of a bag and along with something falling on the ground and bri stood up to go see what they were doing. As soon as she was about to walk in the kitchen Hendrix walked back in with one of Benji's Oreos in his hand while jr followed behind with the pack
"Yo daddy gone get y'all" I told Hendrix as they sat down on the floor in front of the tv and ate the cookies while watching paw patrol
