Positive Affirmations (ftm reader) (1,324 words)

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After a long day of work and being misgendered the only thing Y/n wanted to do was lay down and sleep. Completely forgetting he had agreed to meet Hawks after work. Y/n had been wearing his binder for too long already but really didn't want to risk the dyshporic feeling returning he already felt like he didn't pass well enough today. As he was laying on his couch, still in his work clothes, watching his favorite show he couldn't stop thinking of all the bad things about himself. He was taken out of his thoughts by a knock at the door he groaned as he got up walking to the door ready to tell them to go away.

"Hey babybird, you ready." Hawks happily chirped looking at his boyfriend with admiration.

"For?" Y/n asked confused

Hawks chuckled in response "Did you forget already?"

"Yeah, sorry." he rubbed the back of his neck looking at the ground

"It's alright no need to apologize, we can stay here if you'd like." Hawks smiled walking into your apartment taking off his jaket. Y/n shut the door following behind his slightly smaller boyfriend who went to sit on the couch. Hawks patted the spot right next to him gesturing for his partner to sit.

"So how was your day my dove." Hawks placed his arm around his boyfriend shoulders forcing him to lean closer to him. Y/n just mumbled a half-assed fine into his boyfriends embrace.

"That bad huh, Wanna talk about it?" Hawks ran his hand through Y/n's hair. Y/n lightly shook his head nuzzling further into hawks.

After a while of laying around relaxing Y/n finally spoke although his question chaught Hawks off guard. "Kei, why are you even with me?"

"What do you mean?" Hawks was confused to say the least, having no idea where that had come from.

"I mean why are you dating me, there so many better options, prettier girls, more attractive guys, you could be with a real man..." his voice trailing off.

"Baby boy, you are the most handsome, prettiest, cutest, most attractive man i've ever met, i dont wanna hear you say that there are more attractive people out there because its not true, at least not in my eyes. You are a 'real man', and you're mine, my man. You're my little love bird, dont worry about other people. Now i want to hear you say you it. I'm not gonna stop until you do" Keigo spoke before kissing his boyfriend's face all over. He kissed all over his face he complimented each spot.

"Keigo~ stop" Y/n giggled trying to push him away failing as Hawks grabbed his hands pinning them above his head both of them falling onto the couch Hawks above Y/n legs on either side. He leaned down countiuing to kiss his face and neck.

"Not until you say you it. Say that you are the most beautiful, handsome man." Hawks whispered into y/n's ear.

"Keigo, dont make me lie to you." Y/n started grabbing the upperhand and switching so Hawks was now underneath him. "You are clearly way more beautiful than me." He kissed a light kiss on his jaw. Hawks couldn't help but blush at the compliment as well as the position change.

"T-This isn't about me." Hawks stuttered looking away shyly.

"Aww~ how cute." Y/n purred kissing his ear and small patches of his jaw and neck.

"Stop deflecting." Hawks muttered before taking a deep breath flipping back to their original positions. "Much better." Hawks returned to kissing Y/n's neck running his hands under his partners shirt. He stopped for a second before sitting up practically straddling him. His hands still under y/n's shirt fidgeting with his binder. "How long have you had this on baby bird?"

"About13hours." Y/n mumbled out quickly hoping he wouldn't hear.

"About what.. did you say 13 hou- Y/n I better have misheard you, come on baby." Hawks' demeanor had changed to serious in less than a second as his boyfriend nodded signaling he was right about the number. Hawks shifted himself off of Y/n sighing and grabbing his hand and pulling him to the bedroom. Hawks knew he couldn't really get mad at his boyfriend considering he could never fully understand what he went through each day but Hawks just wished he would take better care of himself. Hawks dropped his hand going into the top dresser drawer and grabbed an oversized soft long sleeve shirt and threw it on the bed, after shutting the drawer he sat on the bed. "Take it off baby bird." Hawks locked eyes with his slightly taller partner who was currently trying not to look at him. "Baby bird." Hawks raised his voice allowing alittle of his annoyance slip in.

"Keigo." Y/n started looking up about to protest but after seeing the look in Hawks' eyes he decided agianst it. "Fine." He muttered removing his shirt with a huff "don't look." Y/n spoke looking back at hawks to make sure he listened. Hawks turned around on the bed not wanting to upset his baby, silently chuckling to himself, his boyfriend acted as if he hadn't memorized every inch of his body already. Hawks sat still listening to Y/n move toward the bed grab the shirt and put it on. "You can turn around now." Y/n mumbled not feeling like really speaking but still wanting to tell his funsized partner(he's not really that short but this made me laugh) he was dressed.

"Alright," Hawks shifted once again to face his boyfriend. "Now where were we." Hawks thought aloud deploying a feather to drag his boyfriend to him. "Oh thats right i was telling you how perfect you are." Hawks resumed his kissing laying them down on the bed Y/n on top of him, Hawks' hands on his hips holding him lightly in place. Hawks countiued placing light kisses all over his boyfriend face, neck, and shoulder complimenting him every time he moved to a new spot "My beautiful, beautiful baby boy." Hawks whispered softly into the room. Y/n couldn't stop blushing so he tried hiding his face in Hawks' neck hawks pulled Y/n's face towards his placing two fingers uder his chin making Y/n look at him. "Don't hide this beautiful face from me. Okay." Hawks smiled a warm genuine smile before placing a gentle passionate kiss on his lips, Y/n kissed back their lips moving in sync. Y/n at this point forgot about his shitty day and just enjoyed his time with his overly passionate, overly cuddly boyfriend. After a few minutes of kissing hawks broke away. "Did you eat anything today." He asked staring into his boyfriends e/c eyes his filled with concern.

"Yeah, i had a snack like..." Y/n checked the time. "...nevermind that was so long ago." He chuckled. Hawks sighed sitting up with y/n on his lap "what do you want." Hawks rubbed his hands up and down y/n's back.

"Anything is fine." Y/n mumbled into Hawks' chest. Y/n wrapped his arms around Hawks neck and legs around his waist as he stood up walking them both to the kitchen. Hawks set his boyfriend, who was currently clinging to him supported by Hawks' hands on his thighs, onto the counter before going through various food options settling on f/f.

Hawks cooked in silence as Y/n watched him swinging his legs off the countertop he was placed on so he wouldn't be in the way, Hawks occasionally came over to steal small kithes. After the alotted time it took to cook f/f the two of them eat relatively quietly but not uncomfortably. After eating they went back into Y/n's room and slept curled impossibly close together.

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well, thats it i hope you enjoyed this little oneshot, sorry for any mistakes, i have other i'm working on feel free to leave feedback,
i know i actually publised somthing i have a lot of stuff in my drafts so...~Kris

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