To All The People I've Loved Before (Renyang)

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Renjun's POV

"Look I know it's a long letter but are you done reading it"

I took my phone out took a picture and gave it back

"Ya here anyway you do realized I don't like you anymore"

"Yes I get that you-"

I saw Lucas coming

He had the letter in his hand

I wasn't ready to talk about this yet

I cut him off by pulling him close to

"Play along"

I whispered

"What play al-"

He whispered back

Well was whispering back till I kissed him

Thank god he actually listened and kissed me back

After a few seconds that felt like forever I slowly pulled away

Not to mention he actually put his hands around my waist like who can just comfortable do that when randomly kissing someone I felt weird just putting his arms around his neck

"Your amazing you know that "

He also seemed to get that hint and continued to play along

"And you are too.... love"

I looked at him shocked and he just looked at me with an unreadable expression then continued to pull me into a hug and rest his head on my shoulder

"You better explain why your making me play along to being your boyfriend right now later because I'm beyond confused"

Thank god he whispered

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw a shocked Lucas walk away

I pushed him off of me

"You know you could've just told me to stop instead of very rudely pushing me especially since I played along for you like god I've heard of mixed signals but I just thought that was when somebody looked like they were going in for a hug but go for a handshake not telling you the have zero feelings for you and the kiss you with a semi warning"

"Look I'm sorry but I'm not used to being affectionate with people okay I just needed to do this"

"Why?"

"You know how you got the love letter"

"Yes I'm kinda holding right now"

He lifted up his hand started waving the letter

"Well you weren't the only one"

"Well Lucas who is my best friend's boyfriend also got a letter but I wrote that years ago like the minute they started dating I wrote that letter and said goodbye to my feelings I couldn't do that to Jungwoo and I still can't but I don't want him now reading it and think I sent it as a way of showing I still have feelings for him when I didn't even send it out myself so-"

"So you thought that if he thought I was your boyfriend he would actually think that you truly don't have feelings for him anymore and it wouldn't be that awkward when you confront him about it"

"Exactly"

"One problem what are you going to say when he asks why you sent out the letter even if you didn't mail them out and they went out by accident"

"Well you were holding your letter I'll just say I had his letter and yours in the same box and didn't notice I also sent out his and that I only sent his"

"Okay"

"Well you have practice to get to bye"

He grabbed my arm

"Wait"

"Yes"

"I... I'm sorry that I stole your first kiss but if it makes you feel any better you just stole a kiss from me now"

I smiled a little

I guess he isn't that big of a jerk as people make him out to be

"No problem I'm over it"

"Okay I'm going to get going to practice bye stay safe on your way home"

That's when I realized that I didn't have a ride back home

I didn't want to start driving since I still felt uncomfortable behind the wheel of car and all buses left so I did the only thing I could

I called Lucas

"Uh hey I need a ride"

"Your boyfriend can't give you one"

He said it in more of an annoyed then a made tone I choose to play along and act like I didn't know he knew me and Yangyang were "dating"

"How'd you.... how'd you know..... anyway can you come pick me up..."

"Fine but we are talking about this and something else in the car okay..... wait by the front gates"

A few minutes after walking to the front gates I saw Lucas' car pull up

I got in

"How the fuck could you keep this from me and Jungwoo I bet Kun and Chenle don't know to J mean you have a whole ass fucking boyfriend and you don't tell us I have to find out from seeing you two kiss when I came to confront you about a love letter you wrote me which Imma get back to in a minute-"

"I'm sorry I'm sorry okay listen I just didn't want anyone knowing yet you guys can get so over protective even Chenle who's younger than me can okay and as for the love letter I found it after writing Yangyang one I when to mail his and meant to throw away yours okay but they both got sent and I was actually going to mail yours years ago but now since then I just didn't have the gut okay and just please don't tell Jungwoo he would probably be heart broken if he knew I had feelings for you"

"As for the love letter thing I'm not going to tell Jungwoo as much as I hate lying to him if he found out you had feelings for me before we started dating and that you felt heartbroken when we got together he would never let it go and end up breaking up with me from guilt and I would definitely hate not getting to call him my boyfriend more than lying"

"Thank you"

"Now as for the boyfriend thing we are all worried about you for good reason didn't he like just get out of a relationship..... with a girl"

"Firstly his bi second his treated me with nothing but love and respect third I'm a young adult and can choose who to date okay"

"Okay but y'all haven't like done anything yet..... please tell me if you have you used protection because if you guys did anything and did it unsafely then when Kun finds out he is first going to murder you for doing anything like that then murder your boyfriend for 'tenting' you then murder me for knowing and not telling him and I'm not in the mood to die today"

"No we haven't done anything yet but way to make the mood awkward"

"Sorry"

~tbc~