To All The People I've Loved Before (Renyang)

6

Renjun's POV

He sat down on one of sets in the kitchen

"So wanna play 20 questions or something"

"Sure we can do that"

"Okay I'll start who's your favorite musician"

"I like one direction what about you"

"Travis Scott and Ariana Grande"

We kept asking each other questions

"So why do you live with your cousins?"

"Well my parents were always away on business trips and same with Chenle and Kun so we always had each other so when Kun was moving cities around the time I was in middle school we wanted to come along since we didn't want to be left alone so we all moved here and by chance a year later Haechan's family also moved here"

"Oh that's nice that he let you come along and all"

"Why do you live with Ten was it and his boyfriend"

"Oh well I already lived pretty close to here but I want to go to a college near were Ten's college is so he ended up agreeing to let me live with him because I was eventually going to move here if I got into the college I wanna go to and he thought that I shouldn't live alone because he thinks I'm a hazard to myself and the apartment complex I would live in"

"I can agree with him based on how messily you had you scheduled planed out I don't think you could do it"

"Oh so you think you could plan out my schedule better than me"

"Sure I could hold on let me pop these brownies in the oven and I'll show you what I did"

I put the brownies in the oven and set the timer

I walked into the living room and he fellow left behind me

I pull out a binder

"Here I made a schedule of the care pulling so I had reorganized it you don't mind if you have to wake up early to drop us off"

"Considering the fact you agreed to being my fake boyfriend it's the least I can do"

"Okay well then here"

I handed him a schedule

"It's pretty simple if you look at the bottom-"

I stopped when he started looking at me

"What the fuck are you doing"

"I'm looking at the bottom"

"I'll will chock you bitch-"

"That's kinky but I'm not into being chocked maybe if I was the on doing the cho-"

"Can we just get back to the topic"

"Okay"

"If you look at the bottom on the schedule I put a note of what every color meant and highlighted the days everything in pink is when I have early practice which is why every Monday is highlighted orange are the days you have after school Lacrosse hence why it's every Wednesday and Friday everyday colored in blue is when you have games to play"

"Wow goddamn can you plan everything for me"

"I'm not gonna plan everything for you but I can modify the schedule plus it'll help me"

"You know most people find something to regret about being in a fake relationship but you keep giving me reasons of why this is a good idea"

"Well you aren't too bad yourself I guessed you would be a little more of a jerk"

"What why would I be a jerk that makes no sense why be a jerk"

"That's what everyone is school says about you don't look at me they say it's hard to really get to know you personally but as of right now I'm getting to know you and it seems really easy your not the ice king everyone makes you"

"Actually it usually is harder to get know me I'm very careful but something about you makes you seem trustable maybe it's because of known you for a year"

"Why do you find it hard to trust people I mean if you don't mind telling me"

"It took me from 8th grade till this summer to realize how toxic my relationship with Olivia was first off any time I would hangout with someone else she would say I'm not giving her enough attention and that I should spend more time with her when she would cancel our plans to hangout with other guys because they were her friends and every time we broke up she would gaslight me saying how I don't put enough effort into the relationship and when she cheated on me this summer she said that it was my fault that I didn't spend time with her so she ended up looking for appreciation else were but that's completely bullshit because she canceled all our plans over the summer that's when I realized she was gaslighting I guess that's part of the reason I wanted to get back at her so much"

"I'm sorry"

"What for"

"Well I guess I just believed what people said I thought that you would just tell me a few facts about yourself and then stop and didn't try to know when in reality your a person who's been gas-lighten so many times you've been scared from it so you built a wall to stop people from leaving more scars"

"You know I've never thought of it that way but your right you have a beautiful way with words by the way even back in 7th grade your letter was really poetic it's like you can take even the ugliest emotion likes anger or jealousy and describe it in a way that makes it seemingly dangerously beautiful"

I was shocked for a second

"Oh...umm... thanks"

"It's a beautiful gift much like you are"

Now I was even more shocked

Did he just....

Did he flirt with me.....

I heard the alarm go off

"Oh the brownies are done wanna try them"

"I think imma have to get going it's almost 8:30 and I told Ten I'd be back at like 9 I don't want to worry him"

"Oh well let me pack you some in a container you can even let Ten and his boyfriend who you never told me the name of try some"

"Sure and sorry Ten's boyfriend's names Johnny"

"It's fine here so I guess this is goodbye wait I'll walk you to the door"

"It's fine you know"

"I feel awkward around you so I better get used to it"

As he was about to leave

"Well as long you don't feel awkward when I do this"

He kissed me

I could taste The cherry lip balm he had on

It also made his lips really soft

I couldn't help but kiss him back

After what felt like forever he pulled away

"Okay bye"

I couldn't even say anything I just closed the door in shock I then put my back to it and slowly slid down the door

~tbc~