To All The People I've Loved Before (Renyang)

5

Renjun's POV

I got a phone call from Haechan

"FIRST OF I THOUGHT YOU BURNED THE LOVE LETTER YOU WROTE ME BUT ITS SO CUTE"

"Ya I thought I might as well throw it away but I thought you might want see it instead"

"Aww thanks anyway YOU AND YANGYANG ARE DARING WHAT THE FUCK HOW COME I WAS NEVER TOLD"

"It happened so quick we didn't want to tell anyone yet"

I was honestly shocked this is the most I've ever lied to Haechan

"Fine but next time y'all tell me so spill what is it well what was it like having a secret relationship with someone who just got out of his on and off relationship like a month ago"

"You won't believe this but his actually nice and not a complete asshole"

"What really damn but I guess if you got along with him he can't be a huge jerk so why were y'all kissing under the bleachers"

"We were kissing because that's what a couple does under the bleachers because no one knew we were dating yet"

"Okay so what was the kiss like"

"Huh?"

"Come on you can write all this poetic love letters and can't explain a kiss like when I kiss Mark I feel loved and appreciated like nothing could ever go wrong"

Oh......

Well I felt nothing.....

But I remembered what I felt in my first kiss

And it was with him so it technical counts

"Hmm like fire worlds and lighting and the world just stops"

"That's weird"

"What is"

"You didn't say you feel loved don't you feel loved and cared about"

No

I didn't then and I don't know

"Your right it makes me feel special you know"

"That's great all I want is for you to be in a love relationship"

A loving relationship....

This wasn't even a real one....

"Of course and I only hope for the same for you"

"Okay well I have to go I have a date to get ready for later"

"Okay bye have fun"

"Bye"

I closed the phone and sighed

Was this really a good idea

Lying to everyone

I have to go talk about this but the only person I can talk about it with is Yangyang and I'm not in the mood for that so I'll just go to my favorite library

"Hey Kun I'm going the Rose's"

"Okay be back before 5 because that's when the food will be done okay"

"Bye I'll be back"

I rode my bike to Rose's

It was my favorite book story because it was beautiful

It was all wood with fairy lights and fake (like my current relationship) flower vines and a booth set by a big window it was peaceful

"Hi Ms.Rose"

Ms.Rose moved here and opened this book shop two years ago I've been going ever since

"Here I just got this new book you might like"

She passed me a book

"Thanks by the way-"

The door chime rang

And my "boyfriend" walked in

"Renjun"

"Oh Renjun you know him"

"Yes why has he been giving you a hard time I'm sorry-"

"No need actually the opposite he comes and reads here even sometimes helps me putting away a few of the books"

"Oh well that's nice"

"Yes he is such a nice young man"

"I didn't know you came here Renjun"

"Well Renjun's been coming here since I opened at this point I think he might know every book here"

"That's cool"

"Oh how do you two know each other"

"Yangyang and I are close friends"

"Well that's nice also when your done reading the book tell me if you like it you have a good sense of book"

"Okay"

"Oh and Yangyang the book you wanted here it is"

"Thank you"

Yangyang sat down across the room in the corner probably because he wanted to be alone which I completely understand I wanted to be alone right now so I get it

*time skip*

I was about to leave when Yangyang stopped me

"Hey I realized I never got your number"

"Oh right"

I took at a post-it note and wrote it down

"Thanks see you tomorrow morning"

"Ya see you tomorrow morning oh actually wait"

"Yes"

"Well if your our ride you also need to give us a ride back but I know some days you have Lacrosse practice so if you just wanna send me your schedule so I know when to get another ride"

"Oh ya sure also don't you take after school classes send me when you have those so I can just drive home and then maybe drive back to school and pick you up"

"Okay I will"

"Bye have I nice day"

"You too"

"Actually"

"Yes"

"Well I know nothing about you like your favorite movie or anything so later at like 6 Kun is taking Chenle out shopping for some supplies they need and knowing them it'll probably take like an hour or two so if you wanna come over then since if we are going to actually pull of this whole dating thing we are going to needed to know each other"

"Sure just don't hide me in your closet again please"

"Okay this time I won't so I'll see you later"

"I'll see you later"

*time skip*

Kun and Chenle left the house a few minutes ago and I was cleaning the kitchen I promised Chenle I'd make him his favorite brownies later  I also printed out both Yangyang and I'd schedules and cross referenced them to make a car pool schedule for us

Then I heard the doorbell ring

Shit I completely forgot I invited him over

I answered the door

"So if you don't mind I have to finish up the dishes and I'm going to be baking while talk"

"So you like baking one thing I just learned and ya sure I don't mind as long as I get to try whatever your baking"

"Chenle's favorite brownies"

"Okay now I have to try your brownies I wanna see how good you are at baking"

"Sure"

~tbc~