My old best friend (Nick jonas love story)

Part 10

i'm just organizing my kitchen with my music on and then "fireflies" came on .. that was my final dance at the studio i was in when i was 18 (i'm 21 now) so i just started dancing a bit the choreography. the song ended and i was just with a smile on my face .. missing dancing.

Nick: well you still dance incredible - he said comeing to me

Madi:  idiot you scared me as hell - i said as i putted my hand on my heart 

he smiled and i then remembered he is not suppose to be here

Nick: the door was open you should notice this.. that's not Jersy here

Madi: Nick!! - i said yelling . - what are you doing here?! i told you not to come until you fix things up

Nick: well i know but i needed you- .. he said sitting on one of the kitchen high chairs 

Madi: what's wrong? - i said getting close to him

Nick: pri.. 

Madi: what? about that night in the gallery ?

Nick: also that.. i mean since we got back in touch she became annying and jealous 

Madi: well talk to her.. tell her she has nothing to worry about.. we are just friends - i said that and somthing in me shrunk.. i don't want to be just friends with him but i have no choice

Nick: yeah.. just friends .. but she thinks we had something when we were younger 

and then there was a moment of silence.. i mean we did was each other first kiss.. when we were 15 a few days before they left to L.A we came clean with our feelings to each other.. we both really liked each other and we just said that and kissed.. but you know it's just a15 years old kiss not something to big

Nick: well we did kiss- he looked me stight in the eyes, i looked him in the eyes for a sec and looked away

Madi: did you told her that?

Nick: well yeah, i told the truth, i don't want to lie to her

Madi: and she was mad? 

he nodded 

Nick: well you know what she is just being stupid and acting like a little girl

Madi: Nick it's fine, she will get over this

Nick: i don't even care anymore

Madi: why are you saying this?

Nick: i don't know.. i don't know what i feel anymore

Madi: to her?

Nick: to you - he said right away

i just stood there looking at him not saying a word, and so does he 

he got up from the chair and got close to me.. i didn't walk back..
he just stood there, really close to me.. god knows how much i want to kiss these lips, but i can't, i won't be able to forgive myself kissing a guy with a girlfriend 

Madi: Nick what are we doing? - i said whispering 

Nick: nothing - he said as he putted both of his hands on my cheeks, holding me strong but with sften that only he have as he bring his forhead to mine.

Madi: Nick you have a girlfriend.. - i said and felt like my heart aching

we looked at each other and i just putted my head down.. he took me to his chest and kissed the top of my head as i putted my arms around his waist.. that felt so good i don't want to let go.. 

we broke the hug and looked at each other 

Madi: what's going on?- i said still kind of whispering, while sitting in the chair as he sits also next to me 

Nick: you confused me.. i mean since we saw each other again i think of you none stop.. i thought that it's because you are my best friend and i haven't seen you in 7 years .. but then we were together yesterday a whole evning and i understood that this isn't cause you're my best friend 

oh my god this what i was waiting for.. for him to tell me he wants me but i can barley say anything 

Nick: say something 

Madi: I'II be lying if i told you i don't feel the same.. but there is Pri in that picture

Nick: i know.. and i don't want to hurt her but i can't be with here when i have feeling for you 

Madi: what? what do you mean?

Nick: i think we need to break up

i opened my eyes wildly and said "NO" 

Nick: what? you just said you feel the same

Madi: okay yeah but i'm not going to be the reason you broke up with your girlfriend 

Nick: because of that you are willing to give up on us? 

Madi: it's not giving up Nick. it's just evrything happening too fast.. you don't just brake up with someone so fast and easly 

Nick: it's not fast.. i have been thinking about that for a few weeks 

Madi: Nick maybe these feeling you have are just temporary 

Nick: really? temporary? i know you since forever

Madi: okay but you have priyanca now and that is complicated 

Nick: maybe that was a mistake doing this.. - he said as he got up from the chair

Madi: it wasn't - i said getting up after him 

Nick: drop it Mads .. it's fine 

Madi: Nick .. we just need to think about this a bit more before we are doing something like this.. 

Nick: agree - he said with a disapointted smile 

Madi: you need to understand me.. i can't just walk in between a couple who lives together already ... and about to marry- i said the last sentece with a smile 

Nick: jesus .. dont even say this - he said rolling his eyes

Madi: ohh wow such a beautiful eye roll..- i said and smiled 

Nick: learn from the best - he smiled and pulled me to him for a hug. 

i hugged him tight and so does he.. i wanted to kiss him so bad but that was not the right thing to do.. i know that. 
he just left my house from the back so there won't be a paparazzi taking pics of him.. 

GOD!! what did just happened?? - i said to my self as i sat on the couch.. what have i done.. i may possibly ruined any chance of us to be together.. 

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