it was two weeks after mine and harry's date, since then we sorted everything out, we were good and we had also gone on three other dates.
the whole group sat on my living room floor sipping on red wine. we were all a little bit tipsy and we giggling loads.
emily was all over harry as usual. harry took a sip of his red wine while emily was kissing his softly "babe let's go," she giggled "i cant wait any longer for you."
harry put down his drink "we just got here. we can't go now." harry said in her ear but he was really loud.
i looked at them and i was jealous. they were so perfect together, and if emily found out about us, it would ruin her and ruin the entire friendship group. she was the nicest girl and i couldn't believe how horrible i was being to her.
a tear fell from my eye, "i'll be back in a minute." i excused myself.
i ran up to the bedroom and had my back against the door. i cried into my hands. i had so many mixed emotions. i had such intense strong feelings towards harry, but then i was always feeling so guilty and bad for connor and em. my heart would break every time emily and harry kissed and when connor and i kissed.
i heard two knocks on the door. "yeah?" i cleared my throat.
"can i come in?"i heard ask. i wiped my mascara away from under my eyes and sniffled. i opened the door and let him in and we both sat on the floor next to each other. "what's wrong?" he asked.
"it's nothing." i chuckled and rested my head on his shoulder.
"i know you're upset. i saw you cry a bit tben you ran upstairs. what is it? you can tell me."
"i'm so sorry-."
connor cut me off "no don't apologise for how you feel."
he didn't realise what i was about to say "i'm sorry. i just can't do this anymore."
"do what?" i felt his torso get up slightly.
"i can't do us anymore." his head shifted and i felt him looking down at me.
"why? we were going good?"
i got my head up "it's nothing to do with you. it was all me. you've been perfect, you're too good for me."
"you don't know your worth. you don't understand how beautiful you are, inside and out. please don't let something so good go down the drain like this." he tried to beg for me. "think about it. sleep on it."
"no," i exhaled "i'm sorry. i cant."
connor got up "fine." he left the room.
i got up and ran after him. i got to the bottom of the stairs and connor had grabbed his coat and left.
"what the fuck happened between you two?" beth asked.
"we ended it." i bit the inside of my cheek looking around then landing my eyes on harry.
"no way, why?" olivia asked.
"i wasnt feeling. he was too good for me. i couldn't keep stringing him along." i cried. not because i was sad about leaving him, it's because i left him for a person i can't have.
"oh babe." emily walked over and hugged me. harry remained quiet. he didn't say anything. "come sit down."
i sat down in between emily and beth. they had their arms around me and the reassured me that every thing will be alright. "i've already strung him along."
"no you were honest with him." bella bought me tissues and wiped my tears.
"harry, call connor and ask where he is." olivia asked.
harry run connor and he answered after a couple of rings. "hello?" his voice croaked.
"mate, what happened?" harry put the phone on speaker.
"she ended things. i was going to ask her to be my girlfriend tonight. i was hoping to do it when i went upstairs." harry looked up with wide eyes. "i was really falling for her."
"oh my god." we all whispered.
"she's so beautiful and funny. she doesn't understand. any guy is lucky to have her. she's perfect." hearing connor talk about me like this really made my heart break. i felt so bad.
"just come back and you guys can talk." harry tried to convince him.
"no, i know the real reason why she ended things," i was intrigued by what he was going to say "i have a feeling bro that she had a crush on you."
my heart was racing. how did he find out? is it that obvious ? did he see harry and i together?
harry started getting red "what makes you think that?" he turned the volume down on his phone.
"she's different around you. she's always looking over at you. i always catch her."
"no, that's not true." emily rolled her eyes "he's trying to make you look bad."
bella, olivia and beth all shushed emily
"no that's not true." harry tried to style it off "we are just friends."
"yeah but i don't think she knows that."
"listen, i think you're talking out of anger and hurt," harry tried to calm him down "ariah doesn't like me. she never has."
"alright sure." connor laughed."i'm gonna go get wasted and probably fuck a girl, i'll speak to you in a bit." you heard really loud music over connors voice.
"alright bye." harry ended the phone.
"well everything he said obviously isn't true." emily chuckled "he's so crazy for thinking that."
"i know." i tried to act like it wasn't true.
"let him cool off then you can talk to him." olivia said.
