𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐬, 𝐣𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐫

𝟹𝟸.

"Okay" Nailea sighed looking at the camera. Nailea and Jaden had their hands intertwined with the clasped hands rested on Naileas thigh. "So a lot of you may have seen Talias video and-" She paused, trying to hold her tears.

"Its okay take your time" Jaden reassured the girl.

"No I dont want this to turn to a sobfest. I dont want sympathy and most certainly I dont want people to think I'm faking this." She cried to him.

"Okay so most of you have seen Talias video. And I know I'm a few days late to this, but I've been in the hospital for the last few days and surrounding myself with better people. And I feel really great"

"So I guess we will just jump right into this. So first of all I will start from the beginning of Talias video. We were best friends since the third grade. We did everything together, and I mean everything. Most of our backstory is true. we had a tension between us. It was very obvious to everyone" She started.

"We decided to take a little break from our friendship, it was only about 2 or 3 weeks" She prefaced, "But during the break we both discovered our feelings for each other." Jaden shifted in discomfort. He didnt like hearing about Naileas ex-lovers. Because he didnt know if he would ever live up to the standard.

"I called her and told her to come over so we could talk. Her mom dropped her off and I couldnt even look her in the eyes. At the time I didnt know she felt the same so obviously I was a little uncomfortable."

"I brought her into my room and we sat in silence for a few minutes, neither of us knew where to start. So I just said it. "I like you" is what I blurted out." Jaden cringed.

"She stared in shock at me and i started to panic. I thought i messed everything up" She chuckled, letting a tear fall. "But she just smiled and pulled me into a hug. I kinda just sat there and let her hug me. because I was so confused."

"But then she pulled away and told me that she liked me too. Um..." She paused trying to figure out what to uncover next,"

"Maybe after a week or two of finding out about each others feelings we went in our first date. Where she asked me to be her girlfriend. At first I was a little nervous because of my dad, but we will talk about him later. But after a long conversation of Talia begging me, I said yes" She sighed.

"So as I said before, I was super nervous to tell my dad. At this point I was still in the closet. The only person that knew I was bi was Talia. And I felt manipulated to say yes to her because she was my best friend and I didnt want her to be mad at me."

"We dated and hung out all the time, and Talia finally told me to come out to my dad. Nervous, I told him I was bi. And to my surprise, he was okay with it. Like 100% fine with it."

"And here's where my mom comes into the play," She paused trying not to let the tears fall from her eyes. It was always difficult to talk about her mom, "She never knew I was bi. She didnt even know I was speaking clearly. What I'm trying to say is... my mom passed away when I was 3 from cancer. So I dont even know where on the earth Talia even came up with the idea of her committing suicide. Talia had never even met my mother."

"I believe the next thing I need to uncover is my mental health," She paused again letting out a deep sigh, "Oh my god I've never talked about my mental health to fans" she whispered to Jaden.

"Its okay just take your time" Jaden reassured the girl.

"Okay so a lot of what Talia said is true. I've been suffering from clinical depression since I was 12. I was very young and it was extremely stressful. I felt trapped 24/7. Like I was drowning and their was no possible escape. Cutting was my only resort. I'm not gonna get into too much details because it is a very triggering subject for many and I dont want to put that image out on my platform."

"I carried razors in my bag and whenever I felt like I was drowning, I cut" Jaden winced at the words. He also struggled with many of the same things as Nailea.

"I'm sorry if this video is going super quick, I'm just really stressed about all of this and it's extremely hard to talk about" She admitted.

"Okay I have two more things to talk about. The first one... being my abortion" She trailed off, "Um so-so I was around 14 at t-the time. I was walking home from school. I was by myself because Talia had soccer practice after school. Randomly, s-some guy jumped out of the woods. He p-pulled me back into the woods and... holy shit I cant do this" She cried wiping the tears away.

She let out a shaky breath and faced the camera again, "H-he forced himself onto me. Telling me I'd like it, or I wanted it and then he just left me. I was so in shock I couldnt move. Still to this day I feel his hands on me. I feel his touch all over my body and I hate it. I absolutely hate it. And it makes me want to die every single day of my life. And no matter what my brain wont let me live it down to this day." Jadens tears welted up with tears, he couldnt bare to hear Nailea in such a broken state.

"I started getting sick each morning. Throwing up and having to use the bathroom every 5 minutes. My period was 2 weeks late and I finally decided to tell my dad the whole story. He broke down, but I mean who wouldnt? Imagine your 14-year old daughter trying to explain to you she might be pregnant by a random adult"

"He immediately bought me a pregnancy test that tested positive. When I showed my dad he brought me to the hospital and requested an abortion. Which I definitely obliged with as I did not want a child at the age of 14. So no, I was not having unprotected sex at 14. I technically lost my v-card at 16."

"And finally that thing I need to talk about. Eating disorders. If you are triggered by this please click off. I'm not going to go into too much detail but just incase. So when I was teenager I struggled a lot with body image. I would constantly starve myself, or make myself throw up whenever I ate. I still struggled to this day with anxiety and depression. My eating has gotten a little better but I still go through episodes. And finally, I'm almost a year clean of cutting." She smiled.

"So that's where I'm gonna end the video. You can believe whatever you want. im just telling the truth. Um yeah. Thank you for watching and I'll see you guys next time" She smiled turning off the camera.

a/n- sorry I didn't upload for a bit. I'm failing almost all of my classes and my parents are kinda pissed at me but wtv... vote and comment