Anxiety

Chapter 5

The dorm was busy as Hongjoong, Seonghwa, Wooyoung, and Mingi got ready to go. They had been invited to be on a show and were about to leave.

It took longer than they expected but the four of them had finally left. The four who stayed at home, San, Yeosang, Yunho, and Jongho, were sitting around the living room talking when San started to feel anxious. He went to his room and called Hongjoong but got no response. He called Wooyoung and got no response from him either. He reasoned they must be busy and lay down on his bed, his thoughts quickly consuming him.

A short while later, Yeosang, who had noticed when San left and realised he had been gone for a while, decided to check on him. He knocked on the door but San didn't answer. He slowly entered the room and saw San, laying on his bed, eyes closed, with a tear stained face.

"Are you okay?" Yeosang asked. San's eyes widened and he curled up in a fetal position. Yeosang went to get Yunho and Jongho. "I think something's wrong with San," he said and they went together back to San's room. San was in the same position Yeosang had left him in.

Yeosang placed his hand on San's back but San flinched and moved away. Yeosang looked to the other two but they just shrugged.

"What's wrong San?" Yunho asked but he received no response except for fresh tears and a haunted look in San's eyes. After around 45 minutes of them sitting there trying to comfort San but not knowing what to do, San's phone rang.

"Hongjoong?" Jongho asked, picking up his phone and walking out of the room. "Something's wrong with San."

"What's wrong?"

"I'm not sure. He's crying and curled up in a ball on his bed."

"Make sure he has Shibur and I'll be home as quick as I can."

Jongho came back into the room and saw Shibur lying on the floor. He handed him to San and told him Hongjoong was on the way. He saw San's thanxx in his eyes but he didn't move.

When Hongjoong came home he went straight to San's room. He told them not to tell anyone what happened and asked them to leave before locking the door.

He sat down next to San and rubbed his back and San slowly fell asleep, Shibur cradled protectively in his arms. Hongjoong left the room and called the three others over.

"If San wants to tell you he will tell you," he told them, "but whether he tells you or not, you are not to tell anyone, not even the other members."

"Is he okay?" Yunho asked.

"He'll be fine. He's sleeping now."

They didn't ask any questions about what happened. They only worried whether or not he was okay. They kept quiet and when San told them the next day they accepted him with open arms and reassured him that it was fine and they were always there for him when he needed it.

A/N and now more people know San's secret...