Ur luv'd- Noah Beck

•Old habits•

"You came." He said while looking at me and moving aside so I can sit next to him. "Yeah I did." It was quiet for a while. "So how was your date with Noah?" I laughed a little. "Did you really make me drive in the middle of the night meet you in a dark cold park just for you to ask me about my date?" He laughs a little. "Well I wanted to know if Noah's treating you right." I sigh and then said, "He did, he took me to the beach where we painted and then we went to diner." He nods. "That's nice of him." He stayed quiet for a second before he continued speaking. "Did you tell him...about us?" He looked into my eyes. "I did...he said he was okay with it...as long as I don't have feeling for you." He looked out to the view and back at me. "You don't have feelings for me...do you?" I started feeling water in my eyes. "I honestly don't know." "What do you mean?" I never felt so confused with my feelings before. "When you left me, I felt like it was my fault that you did. I kept asking myself why did he leave? What did I do to deserve this? Did he get bored of me? So many questions and I kept blaming myself more then I did blaming you. I hated the idea of you leaving me and I hated you for that so much." I stood up. "But I hated more at the fact that I..." I sighed "You what?" He said standing. "That I'm still in love with you." I started crying more and more. Before anything else, Griffin was walking forwards me, put his hands on my cheeks, looked in my eyes and kissed me. I kissed him back because I haven't felt his lips in so long. We kissed for a while before stopping for air. We both leading our heads together. "I've waited to do that for so long." We laughed. I looked up at him and started to realized we shouldn't have done that. The more I thought I started to think about Noah. I couldn't do this to him I shouldn't have come here I shouldn't have kissed Griffin. I started to pull away and walk backwards. "Xoch what's wrong?" Griffin said confused. "This was a mistake I shouldn't have come here." "What?" "I cared about Noah and I want to be with him." His eyes widen a little bit. "You're thinking about him now after we kissed?" "Yes I guess I am." "Why? I mean you just said that you still love me why think about him?" "I do but I hate you more then loving you, Griffin did you forget how bad you hurt me by leaving me? You didn't just forgot my birthday, you ruined my life, our future we planned together for years." He stayed quiet and didn't say a word. I waited a second before turning around a started to walk away. "Why Noah?" I heard him say. I sighed but turning around to look at him. "Because he didn't hurt me the way you did." I turned back around and head to my car. I unlock the car, got in and started to back up and left. As I was driving, I kept thinking about what just happened. It was nice to kiss him again and how our lips move together was exciting. Before I knew it I got home, I parked my car and started to cry again. I tried calming myself down. But I couldn't so I just let myself because it's okay cry and let it all out. After a couple of minutes I took a deep breathe and went inside. I got to my room and saw it was 4 in the morning. I changed into sweats and a crop top and went to sleep.

Griffin~

After she left I stayed at the park for a while to think. Think about how I screwed up again. How did I screw this up? I shouldn't have left back then and I shouldn't have let her leave now. I sigh and went to my car and I head back home. When I got home it was almost 5 in the morning. I saw that Bryce was up. "Hey man where have you been?" He said looking up from his laptop. "Ah man I fucked up again." "What did you do this time?" He laughs. "You know that girl Noah's been talking about lately?" "Yeah Xoch right?...Wait don't tell me you fucked her?" He said with a smile following right after. "No ah her and I use to date back home." "So she's the girl you told me about...the one you left behind?" "Yea that's her." I looked down. "Dude you're so fucking stupid for leaving her...specially with a body and just like damn her ass is something else." He smirks. I started to get mad when he said that. So mad I walked up to him, grabbed him by the shirt and pinned him against the wall. "You don't EVER talk about her like that. Just how you don't like it when we talk about Addison." I said looking died in the eye. "Hey what's going on here?" Blake said as he walked into the room. "Nothing...Nothing at all." I said letting go of Bryce. "Ain't that right Bryce?" He looks at me then at Blake. "Yeah we good just an argument solved." Blake nodded and headed out the front door. I looked at Bryce one more time before heading to my room. I got to my room and just fell on my bed. I looked up at the ceiling thinking if I should tell Noah about Xoch and I's kiss. Maybe if I "accidentally" told him he would tell Xoch and they wouldn't be together and I can get her back. I know it's fucked up but if that's the only why I can get her back then I'm gonna do it no matter what I'm going to get Xoch back. But if that doesn't work I'm gonna make Noah look like a bad guy. Someone way worst then me. I decided to take a shower and still think of ways to get her back. I was in the shower about to get out when my phone went off. I got a message from my team. They said that Tyler Cameronwas coming over today at 12pm to work out with us. It was 9 barely so I thought why not take a nap then get gas for my car before he got here. So that's what I did. After my nap I woke up and headed out. As I walked through the house I notice that Noah wasn't here. "Hey Vin where's Noah?" "I think he went outside for a call." He said pointing out the balcony. I thanked him and started walking over to talk to Noah. He was looking out the view and still on the phone. I waited till he was done to talk to him. I saw that he put his phone down and that's when I opened the door. "Hey man what's up?" he said looking at me and then at his phone. "Hey dude I wanted to talk to you." "Sure what's up?" "It's about Xoch...I'm guessing she told you about her and I." "Yeah she did listen I don't really care that you and her had a thing. It's in the past and I doesn't borrow me." "No yea I understand that and since we were in a relationship I'm still gonna care for her no matter what and if I see that she's you know sad or anything else beside from being happy I'm going to do something about it." "I get that you want to be there for her as a friend and I'm cool with that but if it gets to a point where I feel uncomfortable you begin around her then I'M gonna do something about it." I started to feel like he was trying to say back off my girl. I started to get angry because he thinks that my girl is his. I was going to tell him about the kiss but I felt like right now wasn't the time. "No dude I just ask you to take care of her better then I ever did." He smiles and went inside. I stayed behind looking at the view and started to think of ways to make sure they don't last. I went inside and noticed Noah was in the kitchen. I got my keys and headed out. "Where you going?" I heard someone say behind me. I turned around and I saw Noah. "Ah nowhere just going to gas up my car." "You sure? you're not going to Xoch's place?" I looked at him weird. "Why would I go to her house?" He didn't say anything. "What Noah? Are you scared that I'm going to take your girl?" He balled up his fist. I knew he was getting angry and then I thought that's how I'm going to do it. "Listen Noah when I told you that I'm gonna be there for her I actually mean't it and I don't care if you're her boyfriend." He stayed quiet for a second. I smirked. "Noah I know more about her then you would ever know and that's one thing you will never have, the spark we had that's something you in 50 years will never have...remember that." He still stayed quiet. I laughed a little got in my car and headed out the driveway. This kid is a joke, Xoch's doesn't need a boy, she needs a man to be with. I know I made a mistakes in the past but I owned up to them. This kid wouldn't even stand up for himself which makes me think he won't stay up for Xoch's when she needs it. I got to the Gas Station parked my car and headed to inside. While I was inside I grabbed a water and Swedish Fish. After paying I went to my car and started filling up my car. When I was done I got in and headed home. I got home and noticed that there were more cars then I left which made me think that Tyler was here. I parked my car and headed inside. I got inside and saw Tyler sitting in the living room with Noah and Vin. "Hey man what's up?" He said standing up. "Hey dude what's up?" "Where have you been?" "Oh I just went to get some gas for my car real quick." "Oh that's good, what you got there water and Swedish Fish? What's that?" When Tyler said that Noah looked up at us. I thought was weird. "Ah they're candy almost like red vines but shaped like a fish, they're pretty good." When Tyler was trying them out I noticed Noah not looking at us anymore which got me thinking. "Um this are good where did you find these?" "Oh back home my girl at the time and I would always go get snacks before we would go the a drive-in movie every Friday." "Oh that's nice." "Yeah I'm actually the one who showed her these." Tyler laughed a little and continued to eat them when I looked back at Noah and saw in his eyes he was getting angry. I smirked a little. I told Tyler he could keep them and went to my room to put on shorts to work out in. As I was going to my room I thought about how Xoch was telling me that Noah took her to the beach and said something about them getting snacks she must have gotten Swedish Fish, since the day she first tried them she got them almost every single day. She must have gotten some on her date with Noah.

Xoch~

I woke up late today. I was still trying to understand what the hell happen last night. I kissed Griffin. I KISSED Griffin! I'm so mad at myself right now I mean how could I let this happen, I'm so stupid. The more I thought about it the more I wished I didn't go see Griffin last night. I checked my clock and saw it was only 9 in the morning. I got up and headed to the bathroom. After I was finished I went downstairs to make some breakfast. "Hey Mi where have you been?" I said seeing her sitting at the island in the kitchen. She sips her coffee but saying, "Hey I've been looking at cases that my teacher has left the team and I this week and let me tell you it's something." She laughed. Mia is a studying to be a Intelligence Analysts. Sure she drinkings a lot and does dumb things but girl is so smart. As I was making a cup of coffee I looked at her work see how's she's doing. I'm a T.A. in her class. "You're doing good, I'm proud of you." I looked at her and smiled. She smiled back and looked back at her work. "What about you, where did you go last night?" I looked at her and sighed. "Griffin texted me and wanted to meet up." "And how did it go?" "I only went to hear him and not make it awkward between us with Noah." She nods. "Oh that's great maybe in time he can see that you-." "I kissed him." I said out loud. Her eyes widen so much. "You what?!?!?!" "I kissed him." "Xoch? Why would you kiss him?" "I didn't kissed him first he kissed me but I kissed him back." I told her what happened. "Wow that's something." She said taking a sip of her coffee. "In my head I knew I shouldn't have done but I-" "Still love him." I looked at her and started to cry because she knows me so well and gets me no wonder that she's my best friend. She got out of her seat and came around the island to hug me. I hugged her back and start to cry my eyes out. "Oh babe it's okay let it out." "I don't know why I still have feelings for him and feel this why." She kept hugging for what felt like forever. "I just don't know what to do anymore."