Didn't Expect ~ Matt Espinosa

Chapter 6

I woke up and remembered what happened yesterday. Ughh. I lazily stood up from my bed and walked inside the bathroom. I took a bath, brushed my teeth then went out with a towel wrapped around my body. I walked to my closet and (A/N: Outfit in the picture) I grabbed my black tank top with cuts at the back, I grabbed my sleeveless denim jacket, I grabbed my white skirt (A/N: I don't know what kind of skirt it is) and my black ankle boots. I walked inside the bathroom again and put them on. I got out of the bathroom and I walked to my Make up station. I Blow dried my hair and put my white cat ears- headband on. Once I was done, I grabbed my white bag (A/N: bag in the pic) and put my stuff in it then put it on my right shoulder. I walked out of my room then walked down the steps. "Good morning Vince, Christian" I said. "Morning" They both said. "Why are you early ? You don't usually wake up this time." Vince said. "Well, she has a motivation to go to school" Christian told him, well I think, referring to Matt. I laughed "Shut up". "It's true though" Christian said. "Yeah" I admitted. Then Vince cheered, jumping out of the chair and I stared at him. "Sorry, I, was..just..ugh..Happy that you're finally gonna have a boyfriend ?" Vince said unsure. "Whatever Bro. It's not a boyfriend. He is my Viner crush. Though I wish we can be together." I told him. Then they laughed. "That's all what fangirls wish for." Christian said and I just giggled. We ate breakfast then we head out. We went in Christian's car and he started to drive. I brought my phone out and put my headphones on my head, plugging it in my phone. I played my One Direction playlist. They're one of my favs too. Matt's my life, One Direction is my drug. The first song was Alive. I started humming to it. I love to sing but, no one ever knew. Not even my brothers or anyone. I kept it in my self. That'd why I rarely sing. I only sing when they are away. In short sentence, when I'm alone. I play the guitar and they know it.

We arrived at school and I paused the song, Better than words was playing and the song was half to finish. I put my headphones hanging on my neck first. "Bye Vince, Christian" I told them and kissed their cheek and I was the first to get out. I removed my headphones and unplugged it from my phone then turned off my phone and put them inside my bag. I adjusted my bag on my shoulder and started to walk. I got in the school door and everyone was staring at me. "What ?" I asked them and they just turned back to their business. What's up with them ?? I saw Nash running towards me. "Hey Alexa ! You look so gorgeous." He said out of breath. I giggled then said "Thanks, Hi. Are you alright ?" I asked him. "Yeah..." He breathed. "Soo, what's up ?" I asked him. "Well, you see, Matt sent me to talk to you." Nash started and I nod my head, gesturing for him to go on. "He told me to tell you that what he said wasn't true. He said that he takes it back. The I love you thingy" Nash finished and that just hurt. What did you expect Alexa ?! He doesn't love you, okay ! Even as a fan ! There's no love to put. I just smiled well fake smiled and said "Okay". "Are you okay ?" Nash asked me and I just nod my head. Trying to hold back the tears. "Okay...See ya later Alexa" Nash said and hugged me then ran off. It wa my turn to run off. I run to the girls bathroom and I locked my self in it then I sat down on the dirty floor and I let it all out. The tears streamed down my face. Am I over reacting ? No, I don't think so. It really hurts. Then someone knocked on the door. "Alexa ? It's me, Mae". "Leave me alone !" I yelled and buried my face in my hands. "Alexa...". I didn't answer, I just continued to cry. I'm so pathetic. "Alexa, please. Open the door" Mae said. "Leave me alone !" I yelled a little bit more louder this time. I was sobbing so hard. It really did hurt me. I want to go home.. I adjusted my bag on my shoulder and stood up. I just met him like yesterday but it hurts. I love him so much. He's my life. I spent hours of watching his vines. But then he said that. Even as a fan ? No love ? Okay then. I took a deep breath then quickly opened the bathroom door, and run hearing Mae call for me. I just run and run.

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I reached home and I went inside, the tears still streaming down my face. I closed the door and put the key in the drawer. I went upstairs and kicked my shoes off, so as my socks. I removed my jacket and cried. I grabbed my phone from my bag and I sat down on my bed still crying. I texted my brothers.

To: Big bro, Little bro

Home. Not feeling well.

I put my phone down and cried. My own sunshine said that ! My own sunshine ! I stood up from my bed and went inside the bathroom. I can't take it. It really hurt me. I grabbed the blade from the drawer. I was hiding this for too long now. I sliced the blade in my left arm going deeper and deeper. When my vision was a little bit blurry, I stopped. I put the blade back in the drawer and I cleaned my cuts. That's a relief. I went out of the bathroom and stared at my cuts. They're perfect. I walked to my closet an grabbed my gray hoodie and put it on and changed my skirt to a pair of gray sweat pants. I walked to my bed and sat down. I grabbed the paper where I started to drew Matt from my bag and I continued it. Even though Matt hurt me, I still love him.

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A/N: Hiii sorry if this story is suckish. I'm not really good at writing stories. I'm so sorry.