꒰ written by @moviehyuns ꒱
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the school band competition was coming up in a few days, which more felt like hours. your band was bound to win, that's what you thought, with all the amazing instrument players and also with the schools best known guitarist, koo jungmo. so many girls envied you for having him in your group and, also just as your boyfriend but all you could focus on was the competition and getting first place.
jungmo was acting really strange lately, he has always been in school for band practice but never practiced with you or the band, for that you sort of hadn't talked to him in a while until the day of the concert...
only a few hours till the show began and so you and the band got together and practiced harder than ever, this time with jungmo but he seemed to have taken your role of leader and spoke for the group. "jungmo! im also here... talk to me too!", you tried to get his attention but all he did was nod and avoided eye contact and kept speaking. you couldn't handle it anymore, you stormed out the practice room.
you could finally hear the opening speech for the concert, it has begun. you eyed at all the other bands seeing all of them huddled together and busy revising notes, lyrics, etc while you, on the other hand, were alone moving in between bands trying to find your own. there was no way they could've just left you?
the final few sentences of the speech were spoken and the first band went up clearing a part of backstage. you found them. "yah! where the hell were you all? i was pretty much lost all alone back here...", you raised your voice in a whisper as they all listened. "we were just... having a meeting", one of your band members said, you looked at jungmo but no reaction. it was hard to believe it but you just went with it anyways.
the ending of the first performance, followed by the second and third. finally, your band, the last band. all of the performances went well, the pressure was high as you walked centre stage in the spotlight where everyone can see you. your legs were shaking as you were standing behind the microphone. you hear your boyfriend beside you. "good luck...", you couldn't tell if it was sarcasm or if he was just nervous as you couldn't dare look back. the lights dimmed and the opening drumming was played. we had begun.
your performance went amazing, way better than all the practicing. you were about to walk off stage until jungmo caught your hand and brought you back as he took the microphone and cued the band to play again but a new song, without you. the song gave you mixed feelings. a slow, happy tune but the lyrics being the exact opposite. the lyrics of farewell and confession. you pulled him into a hug as you sobbed on stage at the same time your band was announced first place.
after the music settled and cheering and shedding tears as a special audience, jungmo brought you backstage where it was just you two to explain the whole situation.
"what was that extra performance?", you asked now calmed down and sat on the school staircase next to him. he cleared his throat and broke eye contact with you again ready to speak. "if i tell you, you must not cry or else ill feel bad. more than i already do...", you were now in so much confusion but you start listening carefully.
"im leaving. im leaving seoul and moving far away back to my hometown in New Zealand... that's why my lyrics were a little- sad and i sincerely apologise for being so cold lately, i just wanted to get the last performance perfect...", his voice was shaking a little too and you could see his eyes watering but he was really trying to hold it back and so were you.
your head buried in his uniform by his chest and his head on top of yours planting kisses on it too trying to signal the words "don't worry" or "i love you so much, ill always be here saved in your heart". you were thinking back to all the hard work you and your band put into the performance and how the outcome was extraordinary. wasn't the best "last band practice" but definitely unforgettable...
