Death smiles at us all, all a man can do is smile back.
- Marcus Aurelius
Have you ever felt yourself drifting off. Not away just off. I think fainting is your soul telling you, you need a day off.
You need some time off, for your body to calm down, and for your mind to rest, because you've been thinking too fast, and running too fast, and time is needed to catch up. It's like when you've ran a marathon, and you are heaving afterwards. Just trying to get air to your lungs because you cant breath anymore, because you have exerted yourself too much. I don't remember what happened in my mind when I was unconscious, I don't think anybody does, its like the memories of the time are in a sealed lock in your brain. And maybe I will never know what those are, except for when I am dead.
I lied wherever I was with my eyes closed for a longer ten minutes after I had gained consciousness. A reminder that I could take a break, sometimes.
I opened my eyes, and the tube light glared at me, as if to say, why are you here?
I sat up, my arms all ready surrounding my self as if I could protect myself.
"Are you okay?"
Issac.
He looked worried, as if it was his fault.
"I am fine Iz, I just had to partner up in English, you know that's tough." I whispered as if I was admitting a dark secret, something I should be ashamed of. Something I should only say under the cover of my house.
"Fey you are just getting worse, you need to see someone." I looked around, to see if the nurse was there.
She wasn't.
"Isaac, I am not broken, it's just tough okay, I am sorry we can't all be like you." I glared at him.
He looked at me.
It wasn't his fault, and I knew somewhere in my brain that he was right, he always was. And he cared.
The nurse entered before Isaac could tell me he cared.
That he loved.
"How are you feeling now Festus."
"Fine, it was probably nothing." I looked at her, as if that would will her to believe me.
"You had an anxiety attack Festus, that's not nothing. Maybe it was just a once upon a time thing, but take care of yourself, I cant make you see a doctor because it is the first time you have come here. But take care of yourself." She smiled.
And if I had been normal, I would have done that. Gone to a doctor.
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