𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓞𝓷𝓮 𝓦𝓱𝓸 𝓗𝓪𝓭 𝓟𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓜𝔂 𝓢𝓴𝔂...🖌‌

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ɴɪɴᴇᴛᴇᴇɴ: ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ʜɪꜱ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇ ꜰᴀᴅɪɴɢ, ɴᴏᴛ ᴏɴʟʏ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ..

And I heard the hand knocking on the door, the knock or arrival of that sorrow which after all my prayers, hopes crushed on the floor came in...

I woke up but scrunched my eyes to avoid the rays of light piercing my pupils.

I don't remember whose face I saw that morning.

It was that day, a day or two before Christmas. People merrymaking happiness spread all around the world:

"Yeah I have that, can you give me-" I was saying to the library girl to give me the new stocks of books but before I could say any further I was pulled away by a strong force of a pair of hands.

I looked at the owner of the hands and was awestruck. It was Yoandri.

"Yeah, where are you pulling me?" I asked with my timid voice.

He did not answer but kept moving.

I could feel his grip on my wrist getting stronger as his pace fastened.

He dragged me to the mountain spring where we first met.

Who knew it would end right there...

He let harshly go of my hand and put his hands back in his coat pockets.

I was shivering as I left my warm suits in the library for the pull without a reason.

I looked down not wanting to meet his eyes.

"Sara." My name escaped from his lips which were filled with affection with a tint of sadness in it but that didn't bother me at first because I had butterflies whisking in my stomach when he called out my name.

I looked at him but his eyes did not meet with mine instead looked down.

I walked closer to him and almost whispered, "What happened?"

Within a second passing, his hands embraced me tightly, those cold hands had warmth now. He hugged as if there was no tomorrow.

"I'm here, I'm not running away." I chuckled still in his hold.

"You will. I will have to." Yoandri said and broke the hug.

My eyes searched for an answer in his eyes but were not getting a clue as his gaze was down.

"Sara there are things that are out of my hand. My mind denied to have it and I can't go against it." He said.

His words were moving above my head not getting a clue about his words.

"What are you even babbling? Gibberish." I asked him it annoyed me this time because he has been telling me that same old shit every other day.

"I'm letting go, Sara Sorry I can't have you after all this I've felt, had a deadline and I can't cross it. I have to deary. Forgive me." He said as his tear poured down.

I was taken aback by his words.

"Are you drunk?"

"No. You don't understand."

"I don't want to. Take all that you said cause I'm not placing it in my head." My voice had become almost numb but I retorted back.

"Sara you have-." I cut him off:
"No Yoandri. Why are you torturing yourself like this? Tell me what happened? I want to help you with all that I have to keep you back. Don't you ever say it?"

"You can't. I couldn't how the hell will you?"

"I will believe me." I pleaded.

My eyes already teary only waiting to pour down to have it more of a mess.

"Why Yoandri? Why me after all that you've known about me?" I asked.

"I don't know. Trust me. Sometimes I've felt yes I could deny all that is inside me and try to give you what you deserve but also a voice in my echos that no I can't I'm not so powerful for it. I swear I need you, I adore you the most in the world, who knew a lone cold wolf like me would be so desperate to meet the warm koala like you deary. Remember a frog turned into a prince and the princess fell for that handsome prince even though it was a nasty, slimy frog in the first place. I adore you, Sara. I swear I do." He said in a gentle voice that had soothed my anger but not my sorrow which I knew that had to come no matter what.

You are just losing yourself and loving it how others do. It wasn't meant to be. I didn't mean to do the same thing together making it obvious that it was right. Don't lose yourself, it's precious inside and I want it." He added.

"You truths are bullets, your mouth is a gun, and ur target is my heart isn't it? PULL THE DAMN TRIGGER" I said crying, poured spit my rage for the last time.

"Sara. Don't it's breaking me even more." He said and held my hands.

I jerked it. "So are you?" I mumbled looking down.

"I don't deserve forgiveness and I wouldn't ask for it either but don't crash yourself for me, don't cry for a guy like me. I'm a nuisance who cannot do anything to bring back the precious star in his life." He said and turned around to move away.

Yoandri was leaving and I felt so helpless to do anything, the affection I held to myself which I had shared with him in my dreams had crushed down before making it a reality.

I'm looking at him with my blurry vision, getting farther away,
He becomes a small dot and then disappears...

He became evanescent from my sight. But only from there?

Why didn't I know?
About the weight of sadness that comes with breaking up?

I looked at the mountain spring where it had started and weakly smiled even if the tears brimmed out.

"I'm such a fool. Oh my God, how will I survive this? He took it all, left me powerless. " I said.

"Just killed me with his kindness, foolish." I playfully slapped myself and walked missing.

                  
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Sara ;)