𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓞𝓷𝓮 𝓦𝓱𝓸 𝓗𝓪𝓭 𝓟𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓜𝔂 𝓢𝓴𝔂...🖌‌

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ᴛᴡᴇɴᴛʏ ᴛʜʀᴇᴇ: ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ɪᴛꜱ ᴍʏ ᴜɴʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ

Days, months, and some more months said goodbye from my life. It had been the same. I don't give it such importance as earlier.

I tried to stay busy with my studies because it was I got to spend time.

I didn't have friends to hang out with nor courage to make ones nor in the mood to be smiling I've been too frightened to smile again.

Yoandri's texts and calls were regular which was somewhat what I don't know. I didn't have the appropriate word to describe. I had mixed feelings but one thing was certain I could not be that shameless to go back to him.

I ran out of reasons to be myself, the gone me. I didn't know how the hell he got the nerve to talk to me.

He sometimes said through his texts that he misses that all we had but despite unbearable pain, I had to act like I don't care look when he broke me first.

I would graduate from university in a few days.

At night I used to gaze at stars sometimes talked with them because they were my friends who did not talk just listened to my shit.

While I read books my eyes gave up and I went to sleep from the plugged earphones with music in my fragile soul drenched in the melody of the violin strings with every note he played.

When the cold air caressed my cheeks and my heart shivered with the vivid memories I held in my heart with Yoandri.

I don't know, I don't wanna know why he is not here for me.

𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑢𝑛𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦

Let's say I had faith in him that whatever had happened was had some positive circumstances and maybe be happy because the difference is strong because when two falls deeper they have to get out to reach the ray of light under the starry sky.

"I thought I would be devastated but I don't feel anything neither happy nor sad just knew that he took the right decision for us. I miss him and I hate it so bad ... possibly I did love him. I just feel empty with a lot of shit inside that foolish mind..."'

What would you be happy to hear? That I got over him or that I was trying to?

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My Humble Request To You, Kindly Vote.
Feel absolutely free to mark my mistakes.

Love,
Sara ;)